Bleeding memories.

2008-05-10T08:02:00.002+08:00

Babies, so wildly innocent.
Sounds of their laughter would kill your tummy.

Me.
Smelling like alcohol and semi drunk.
Dont know wtf Im doing and this time its fucked.

God, why?

2008-05-09T21:14:00.003+08:00

And then there's blood,

and then there's laughter.

Soon, they'll all be gone.

We'll stop laughing,

I'll stop crying.

This blood will stop bleeding.

This heart will stop beating.

And you will say?

"Honey I love you please come back,

for I regret, my actions were all a fag.

Cm'on baby wake up,

I dont wanna see you down.

If you're back i'll make the whole world see,

how much you really mean to me."

I should have listened to all your friends,

and treated you more like a fiend.

Baby you made me believe in love,

But you left me here without any say,

so baby how should I make my way?

After this blood, after this pain,

would you even rememeber my name?

Reminiscene the times we had on bed,

Yeah we both got laid.

Then I asked silently,

if you'll leave me suddenly.

You smiled, kissed me hard then say no.

Comforted, happy, with no problems trusting the flow,

Yeah sweetie I was the dumbest whore.

Now baby you've gone away,

and you left me with nothing to say.

Im sick, Im sad, Im angry.

I've never wanted you to set me free.

So as I lie dead, not awake.

I know you'll still put up a fake.

" I love you, I love you, please baby come back."

And sweetly I'll whisper "To take your pain away?"

Inside you, that's what you say.

I know it anyway.

Honey honey dont regret, because this is what you'll get.

For playing with my heart, my love, my trust.

You shouldnt have messed with a broken heart.

I died not because you lied to me, slept with me,
worse still left me.
I died because you made me believe in love again.
When all I wanted to do, was to forget it, it has no to gain.
So baby its gone and now,
hush little baby, dont make a sound.

2008-05-09T07:54:00.002+08:00

Tonight I have fallen, I cant get up.

I need to cry cry cry but I cant seem to.
These tears just wont fall.

I regret believing you.
I regret loving you.
You are a lie, thats what love is.
I thought I could trust you.
I thought you would love me like I wanted.
And allow me to believe in love.
You spoilt that.
As I reminiscene about you. your birthday. you. you. you.
My broken heart is again, broken.

This time its intolerable.

A broken heart can never be mended.
You did it sweet heart.
My never-healed-wounds are tore open even bigger.
Now it hurts crazy.
This pain you wouldnt feel.
I hope you fucking know,
but I know sweetie, you will get it back.
One day you will be looking at my tombstone,
regretting this action.

So someone, anyone,
lie to me, give me something worth living for
tell me a reason worth fighting for
give me anything, anything to keep me breathing.

They never get past arms length how could they act like everything is alright?

"Everyday the same, she fights to find her way,
she hurts, she breaks, she hides and tries to pray.
She wonders why, doesn anyone ever hears her, when she cries?"

Maybe , making me bleed would be the answer to wash the state clean.

2008-05-07T22:49:00.002+08:00

Exams over, :)

Kay Im watching my doctor show riiiiight now.
Im gonna cry now cause the girls boyfriend just got murdered
and oh my gosh she has to perform a autposy on him omgwtfbbq.
I will cry my cheebye dry and my eyes so wet and red, stab myself.
Then make some hansome asshole kill me.

Ahduiiiiiii. Damn sad. Gonna cry wtf shit shit shit ahpui you better dont die.
I will fucking find the murderer make sure he fucking die also.
Ok Im getting a little drama mama now. Hahahahahahahahaha :p
Today I heard something about some cuntface la cheekien.

I have to clarify this:
What happened between me& Harriet.
Nothing happened between us.
This Im the clearest cause I was the one that started to ignore her.
(Thou I know she might read my blog but this is to clarify stuff.)
She was being somebody that I cannot tolerate anymore and give in to.
3/4 of my friends + ahbu and sisters told me to "just leave her alone"
I didnt at first cause she is my friend.
But after all the full-sleeve tattoo thing, carrying balls and everything.
I just didnt wanna get influenced. Self-rights, right?
So, I chose to ignore her.
It was kinda clear that she has her private school friends and many other friends.
So it clearly didnt mean anything to her.
Apparently now she is spreading around saying that we fell out because of smth I did wrong.
to her. Wtf? Lol.

a) Im your boyfriend ah? I lie to you or I cheat on you? Tsk.
b) Nothing happened between us, just accept the fact that I dont like you.
c) You are two faced.
d) Your mouth leads you to troubles, eg. gate13 which I dont wanna mention.

Worse, at Cine last few weeks, before I heard about this news,
this was our conversation:

Jy: Eh! you know I saw Ben. Haha, he asked where you are and I told him I dont know.
H: Yeah! alot of people also always ask me where you are.
Jy: Hahaha they think we quarrell la, Ben keep asking why.
H: Yeah! Hahaha, what you tell him?
Jy: Nothing lor! HAHA WE GOT THING HAPPEN MEA. just not as close wad. haha.
H: Yah! I also always tell people nothing happen lor.

Get what I mean now?
Then behind talk all the cock saying I did wrong things to her ah, all ah....
lanjiao la please. Rollzeyez-
I regret going for your check up with you.
I regret getting close to you. I regret telling you all my secrets.
I regret making you happy after you and Kage broke up.

I fucking regret knowing you.
All your super fucking gross corny best friend forever shit are lies.
Thanks for insulting all my real bestfriends around me.

Only thing Im glad about is that - We are no longer friends.
Lastly, we did have good times, but its more than over,
have fun with your friends, and shut your gap because I dont think I know you. Thanks.

Okay enough of pissing the sheeshee out of my cunthole.
Cts are oooooooooooover! Hehehehehehe.
Heyonged the whole day, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
We did heartlands shopping its damn stupid but damn fun.
Discovery channel and brainiac at night.
Went to the park near her house, used her lomo camera till no flim.
laugh till our tummys hurt and as usual, Im over spastic.
Left her house at eight plus nine cause I was tired.
I IS USING NEW LAPTOP MY LAOPEI BUY ONE HAHAHAHAHAHA happy.
Yawns, okay Im gonna prepare and go to Zouk now, haha!
Its mamboooooooo night! Just kidding, Keeny Kang, saturday Zouk ahhhhh.

Wait, time for.............

GUITAR HEROES !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-05-06T22:10:00.002+08:00

Been horrendously busy.

Prepare, prepare, preparation.
Tomorrow's last paper, Add math, thank God.
Fri was mugging mugging shit load of mugging.
Erjie's birthday! Happy birthday to you erjie.
I love you! And I know you're so hot and you won't read this
cause you're in the room now with Keeny Kang!
Im missing my doctor show right now but I've the urge to blog.
Fri was funny.
Had PW presentation, and I said "Carpark" as "Carfuck" infront of the whole 3B1.
Everyone giggled and I had no idea why.
I turned around and saw Cass write Cinema as "See-ni-ma" and then in chi, Kan ni ma.
I burst out laughing laughing crazy crazy. jumped jumped squat laugh.
"Karn see karn do karn think karn karn come to the cinema" Wtf? Hahahaha!
And then tuition of Emath.

Saturday morning I had 4 fucking hours of add math.
Very productive, yes. Almost had my brains squeezed out of my nostrils.
White tangerined for lunch and met Brenda@ Kovan.
Trained down to our new "chill-out-place", Shaw house macs smoking area haahahahahaha.
Started studying right after my hoohooheeheehaahaha
making a big nuisance outta myself. And with everyone giving me the Hmmm stare.
Sat there fr 230 to 730 with Geography and Chemistry.
Which was the most productive study time EVER with B, Hallelujah right.
And then was you-can-relax-and-have-a-booze-time!
Drank after that headed Net force to look for Rui. Then me& B went down Hg plaza for pool.
HAHAHAHHA. B'S GONNA KILL ME IF SHE SEES THIS.
I thrashed her 4-1 I kick ass. I kickass. I kickass.

(Kenny kang just walked past me saying: Aiyo! still doing amath ar?)
O.O?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! LOL WTF.

Yeah then we were high. Crazy high.
Ahbengs came to take number fr us. So annoying.
"Wo der peng youzz yao ren si ni" and "Zhuo peng youzzzz er yi mah!"
Then Im like eh! I know that guy la, fuck.
He came up to me, "Wo ren si ni meh?"
"You know who am I anot........."
"Who?"
"Frankie's exgirlfriend."
"OMGOMGOMGSHITSHITSHIT SORRY!"

10 minutes later comes back saying his other friend wants my number.
Tsk! Wtf? Me and B was drained out and we left for home around midnight.
Reached home and I studied Emath till....... 230am? :D
Sunday was church and then study sessions w Vian and B. Had fun.
Shaun and Joel, Ryan = no help HAHA.
Then homed and more geography cramped into my brains.
So everyday's been come home, study, or stay in sch till late, study.
Everything = sake of study.
Wow.
Today studied till 6 with Hanya, Stef and B before leaving the school.
Mr Lim, thanks for staying back for us!:)
I really hope my results this term improves!
Ss/Lit was easy, nailed it both.
Geog, Emath was not bad, esp geog!
Phy/Chem, chem was not bad, phy was tough ( didn't study well enough due to reasons.)

Btw, if you don't like me.
a) Stop stalking me.
b) Don't act as if you like me and smile with that ugly face everytime I see you.
c) You're fucking ugly.
d) You've a fat face.
e) You're weird.
f) Fuck off fr me, friendless cunt.

Lastly, I realise studying can be quite fun actually.
I seriously don't want to end up in privates', retain, ite.
I came to my senses! Hahahahha, I better buck up before too late.
Personal opinion: People who've pretty faces yet're in any-of-the-aboves can't get far.

2008-05-01T20:19:00.002+08:00

Its gonna be 1st May! Ahpui!!! 9 more days!!!!!!!
Yipee yaya yipee yipee ya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jin swee bodoh! ( I pulled through this month, hallelujah!)
So now I'm sitting here, with relative humidity as high as......sky.
Big blue bottle of watter half finished next to me. (Bottle courtesy of my aaaaahpui.)
Tmr Im bringing Ahpui's water bottle to schooooool hehehehe.
And then, Im online, www.sparknotes.com for our darling Boo Radley.
Becauseeeeeeeee I predict the question.
I studied today ytd everyday. Im good girl :)
Online, Boo Radley is cute, lots of water, new foolscap (yay, Brenda!), new pen, correction tape,
Goodluck you all, for common tests ;)

To kill a mockingbird,

2008-04-22T16:02:00.003+08:00

"Hit me with your best shot."

Gotta agree that I've been doing nothing productive :(
Screw Ahpui and his logic of clubbing only with him.
Aaaaaaaaaa.......I....
I almost said I'll go clubbing this Saturday but......
Second thoughts me exams are coming up! Wtf.
Ok fuck it. Fuck it. I want Sonia and Heyong back in Sg asap k.
I miss timtam bubble tea donuts macs all the fattening food sessions w em.
Like eat-as-if-there-is-no-tommorrow-thing. Yes.
Kenny Kang's at my house now playing Guitar heroes. We just has good food.
Good food = Hello Panda, Maggi mee, Beehoon, Milk pocky.
So much for dieting and wanting to lose 5 kg. Tsk!
I feel like vomiting already. Cheekien.
Ok, B didn't come to school today! Wth. Leave me alone......
Poured like heow this morning and caused a 15-20min jam to sch.
Was pretty happy cause I get to sleep and I get a reason to be late for school!
Mommy will never think of me 'pontening' sch cuz she knows.....
I look like cock in school uni and no make up and I don't acknowledge my friends. Hehehehe.
Hmm..
I can't wait for Saturday! Cuz mom just made an appointment w the saloon
for me to do my hair! :)

That's all, can't wait for the week to be over.
Ciao!

2008-04-20T23:07:00.003+08:00

Shove a dick into her face,

Why? Because I say so.

There's great wonders how can one attract so many dicks to her.
How she actually gets people to sympathize with her.
How she actually carries your balls, sucks up to you.
With a pretty face, and a screwed up life.
I wonder how she actually survives......

Things I gotta do/must do before Ahpui comes back:
1. Lose 5kg. (Im overweight. Obese. Fat, like female ver. of Ahpui. HATE MY FATS!)
2. Trim brows every fortnight's Fri. (Then stare at Caesar Marks Edmunds.)
3. Get new foundation+face powder. (The mousse one is making my skin look cakey.)
4. Go do a pedicure. (My ugly toes, amen.)
5. Get a notebook fr Borders and do a write up on how I spent these 26 days w/o Ahpui.
6. Buy poloraid's film.
7. Get B's present asap. (No time!!!)
8. Save money :p

Things to do after Ahpui gets back:
1. Bug him to pay for my tattoo first.
2. Cook maggi mee for him and show him mine's nicer.
3. Eat more fried-kueh with him.
4. Make him kiampui.
5. Pass Ahpui the book and watch him cry ballz. (Just kidding, he won't.)
6. Don't let him over-drink and become more pui.
7. Go Zouk with him. (He ALWAYS want me to go with him, hmmm..... hehe.)

How've you guys been? Good?
This post is kinda redundant. You need not read it actually.
I haven't really been well. I miss that ahbeng fat and annoying thing of mine.
So bad it hurts already. It's been just fucking five, six days?
And god, I feel like crying after seeing his pictures. Pfft.
Somebody understand? No? Yes? Damn.
I kinda miss alot of people....
But I guess they've no me inside their fucking brains. Oh,well.
10 May, that's like fucking long. Feels more like a bloody year.
Sigh, :(

Thursday after sch met Josh. And Gordon, some vocalist for the banddddddd.
Er, Bad Obsession I think. He's cccute. with eyes as big as....... hazelnuts.
Funny guy and I left somewhere in the evening.
Kie's house. And my mommy2 asked me why I've become so tanned.
We cooked maggi-mee and that reminded me of Darling.
Feels. like. shit. Esp when you're with your ex-boyfriend.
So I just talked to my mommy2. (Tsk, I miss Bee's mommy's cooking. Cb.)
Smoked smoked smoked left.

Friday was out with Heyong and Debs.
Went to Heyong's house and packed her stuff.
Did some shit. Laugh and all the cock.
Around 8plus cabbed to Changi Airport. Saw Sonia& the choir co.
Caesar came to look for me (Thank God.)
And when they left I almost teared but I walked away. I'll miss the two.
Pfft. Chowcheekien. Hope they have fun there..
Caesar and I went to cheers and got booze and fags.
Went to chill and I went home after that.

Saturday was out with my bitch. And Caesar.
I had booze early in the afternoon and was pretty stoned after that.
Luckily Caesar felt the same. Hehehehe.
Funny games with 'em. Ate nuggets.
Saw Akira and co :)
Went down to Cine to look for Erjie and Kenny kang.
Fags fags more fags. Ate free cheekien rice(for a reason).
Then went down Net Force. Talked to Rui.
Went home.
(I've been a good guuuuuuuuurl.)

Today was breakfast with mommy at Delifrance.
And visiting my grandpapa at NUH.
Lunch with my Aunt, Uncle, Cousins at some restaurent.
And homed, Guitar Heroes(III) with my two stupid sisters.
Dinner with my whole family.
And now Im sitting here typing all these nonsense.
(If you cannot tell, I'm not in a good mood.)

Because I miss my baby boy! :(
Pouts. 21 more days. That's 3 weeks. Kill me.

Okay, off to my bed to cry my blankies wet!

I MISS MY A.A.A.A A!

(Ahpui, Angkongsiao, Annoying, Attract Attention, hehe.)

2008-04-15T21:12:00.002+08:00

Happppppy birthday Dear bitch!Y

Dear Dear Bitch Y

You've been fun!

Thanks for always being there for me to motherfuck someone!

Thanks for listening to my fucked up rubbish.

You've been a great bitch! I loveveveve you!

a pity we've never took individual pics together!

Soon soon yah! HAHAHAHAHA.

Have great fun on this big day.

Happy happy birthday biiiiiiiiitch!

xo, your sluttttt.

2008-04-14T21:12:00.005+08:00

Won't go home without you (:

1. I HAVE BIG MOUTH!!!!!!!!!!! HEHEHEHE.
2. whoaaaaaaaaa you don't know how much we bitch I swear swear swearrrrrrrrrr.

Ahhhh.. finally.. the inspiration to blog! :)
Okay, headlines first. Importannnnnnnnnnt importantttt.
My babyloveydoveyhoneyfatandsuperannoying is leaving for Taiwan.
For Ns training :( And he'll be away for one month.
Sooooooooooooo........

My Dear Spencer Tan Y,

I'll be waiting for you to be back in Singapore.

I'll be missing you like shit hell crap. So bad I don't knw how to face this week after wed.

I think I'll be crying bed sheets every night :(

I'll miss mommy and her cooking.

I'll miss your Ralph Lauren smell.

I'll miss choosing clothes for you and laughing at you.

I'll be missing your piggyback rides! hehehehehhe.

I'll be missing forcing you to smoke reds cos' I like it and I think it's man.

I'll miss your ringtone(my blogsong).

I'll miss you throwing tantrums at me.

I'll miss saying: Faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat lah you.

I'll miss hugging you.

I'll miss your maggi mee, marsh potatoe.

I'll be miss the way you care for me (:

I'll be loving you every fucking minute.

and even after you're back!

With every kiss and every hug,

you make me fall in love.

xoxoxoxoxo, ily baby Y

Boooo, Im super duper fucking sad k!:( Pfffft. Sigh sigh sigh.
OHWELLLLLLLL!
K. Fri was Brenda's birthday celeb w Penelope, Hanya and Stef!
Ate@ New york new york. Met Isaac on the way there.
Wanted to go Play after that but apparently had issues going home, yawnzx. Cheebai.
So didn't go. Instead, hung out and around@ Cine w Joshua, Ezra.
Then Joshy and Lily.
Left home and Joshy called me and asked where I am. He wanted me go back Cine and slack.
Apparently it was Gaaaveeeen's birthday!
HAPPPPPYYY BIRDDAYYY TUUU YOUUUU GAVEEEN!
Lovelovelovelove you emo kid. And super protective against Nira.
And calls me when you're freezing and Im like Gavin are you drunk?
"No! Im brrrzzz cccccccoooolldddddd."
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Met Justin@ Lido for awhile. While I told him about some stuff blablabla.
I love him la! He listens so quietly.
I had Chocolate Sundae@ Admiralty and I'll only eat choco sundae fr there.
cause it's the best I've tasted! ITS DAMN GOOD K. Its Macs tho.
Its super super yummmmmmmy!
Hmmmmmmmmm............
YUMMY!

Saturdayyyyyyyyy!
Josh asked me out again. Yayyyyy.
Went to buy his pants and we met Hansennnnnnnnnn.
Then was slacking@ Cine the whole fucking day as usual la.
Met JOSHUA AND EZRA AGAIN! Lol! And they brought me for dinner.
As usual, at Cine it's "HIIIIIIII WHAT CHUU DOING HERE!!!!!!!!!"
" AHHHHH I MISSS YOU!"
" OMG SO YOU ARE JIAYEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!"
" HEY!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHERE YOU HEADING LATER!!!!!!!!!!"
" ARE YOU GG CLUBBING?"
" AHHH WHO'RE YOU WITH!"
And the most most MOST common one.
" AHHH JYJYJY! SPARE ME A STICK PLEASE PLEASE."
Then I'll stare at them for a minute. " OKAY!"I'll even help em light their stick to show off my new pink lighter fr Brendaaaaaaa& Rui. Thankz you twwooo

And . I've been showing her off to like 1/2 my friends, hehehhehe.
Oh Cine, happy peoplez, kewlkidxyz!
Then met Josh, Merv, Samantha I think, and Adriel and we went to Homeclubbbbbbb!
Drank a little but didn't even get high. YES I KNOW I KICK ASS.
Bee was busy settling taiCHI@ Bugis :/
AHBENGZ APPROACHED US FOR TAICHI. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
It was fucken funny. Everyone almost died laughing balls.
Then I went home with Hansen.
As in, I go home, he go his home. Yah. HAHAHHH! WHAT WERE YOU THINKING.

Okay, Im done with bloggggging!:) have fun reading!

And I jsut finish watching dou niu yao bu yao. And I cried like hell k.
My pillow was wettttttttt and my eyes were sore. I was crying like omg. crazy :(
I LOVE YOU MIKE HE!!!!!!!!!!! Hehehehhe.

我看不開也放不開
因為我曾見過愛情真的盛開
我要等待一直等待
等那一個夜晚總會贏回來

當你擁抱著我那一瞬間
我像飛到空中
而當我緩緩降落我不再是我
我有了夢我在夢中

＊愛來過來得那麼美那麼凶
歡呼著從我生命狠狠碾過
連遺憾也都不整齊的珍惜著笑容
愛來過讓我完整過幸福過
怎麼能輕易就放它走
我不想解脫我只怕錯過
我只是要等你回來 ( 愛我 )＊

寂寞喧嘩我不害怕
因為我只聽得見對你的牽掛
世界很大會容得下
我這小小小小頑固的信仰
你有沒有過承諾我已忘了那已不重要了
反正我都會守侯在夢中守侯
我最唯一最美的夢
Repeat ＊
如果需要種勇氣起來交換回憶
就讓淚蒸發像這雪花
和我一起在愛中被融化
Repeat ＊＊

2008-04-06T21:33:00.002+08:00

Baby, beware.

I have the sudden urge to blogggggggggggggg. hehehehehhe.

I just came home.........................

Hmm. Friday was cool. Met Chad and Gavin for dinner cause they called me after sch.

Rushed home changed everything blablablabla they say meet@ 545pm.

but after changing and all I look@ the clock it was................ 6.

HAHHAHAHAHA!

OHOHOHOHOH THIS IS RANDOM BUT!

FUCK, SOMEBODY PLS BUY ME A DS PLSPLSPLSPLS! Cooking mama is damn fun.

K back to Gavin and Chad. Down to Bugis and ate Pastamaniaaaa!

Yumyumyumyummmy.

Then Cine all see many funny people. Usual la!

They wanted to go Homeclub. I DONT WANT! 8o

Bee asked me to wait for him@ Cine. He was cabbing down fr camp.

SO I COULDN'T LEAVE CINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(

So I went to Far East to meet Josh! He's my sexy time partner.

Hiahiahiahia.

" Eh you look better now uh~~~ give tikopeh face."

" Uhhh~ Josh I shy lah~~~~"

AHAHAHAHAHAHAH! Fuck sia. Funny fuck.

Then he left and I alone cabbed back Cine to meet Justin, Weilong, Yousheng and his gf!

Hahahahah, saw Fai&co. And I forgot..........

So ate at like Bk. Bee finally came down I = super dulan. See him 5 minutes.

He buy cig come out. I left. Hehehehehehehehheehe bet he hates my gutz.

Saturdaaaaaaaaaaay!

Went down to Bedok meet Bee for lunch so we can cab fr his hse to town.

His mommy likes me la plz. Hahahhahaha! She practically treat me like pig.

She keep giving me food!o.o

French fries............. 5mins later.......... some fried rice thing that is fucking good.

I WAS LIKE: BABY! I TELL YOU SMTH......

BEE: WAD!

ME: I THINK I WANT MORE.............................

hahahahahah! Somemore bee cooked maggi mee for me.

And marsh potato that's good also. OMGOMGOMG k.

I kept examine myself infront of the mirror and play with my fats.

"OMG IM FUCKING FAT."

"WTH BEE, PLEASE LA. WADS WITH THE ACTIONS!"

He gave me Jimbeam(?) fudge that's damn yummy k. Super sweet.

yumyumyum. Then left his house, say byebye to his mommy. Whole time I was talking his mom la can.

Cause I was smoking, so she asked me why I smoke everything.

Hahahahah damn cute k his mommy.

Then left, took cab down to town. Met Bongbong@ Ps.

Me and Bee went to buy donuts for her first! 12 pieces, let her eat until become donut.

HAHHAHAHAIAHIAHIHIAHIAHIAHIA. Bong's face was like O.O!!!!!?!?!?!?!

Heeheeheee. Then usual lor, ate@ Tcc, went Cine.

MET JOSH AGAIN HIAHIHAIHIA.

"Bay bee, when want tu see star again with me wor!"

"After star we go watch muvee?"

"After muvee we go sexy time?"

HAHAHAHAHAH IN HONG KONG SLANG K. FUCKING FUNNY.

He bought me a lollipop, thanks bro! (Btw, he's my sister's exbf.)

Went to find Yousheng, then awhile later I wanted to go home cause I was tired.

Sundaaaaaaaaaaay!

Watched untraecable and I swear its fucking good I swear.

Damn cool k. I was with jJhan, Caesar and Erjie!:)

Hahahhahaa they're damn funny. And we left arnd night time.

Yep! that's all. Off to shower then call Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

He's flying off to Taiwan on 18th. Im gg Malacca on 20th!

2008-04-05T01:34:00.003+08:00

What bestfriends?

What Sisters?

What great friend.....

I do, did cherish you as a friend sweetheart. But sometimes things don't go your way. And you just gotta accept it. Don't you know me well after these few years? Aren't we keep-no-secrets-buddies? What happened to make you act this way?
I'm more than reluctant to say this but.
Why're so so.......... spoilt, stubborn and think you're always right?
I know you don't mean it sometimes but you've never admitted your mistakes. We accept that.
You push the blame around. We tolerate that.
You don't turn up and leave us there. We forgive that a gazillion times.
We treat you like a sister, wanting only the good for you.
And if bad ever comes to you, Im not afraid to say I'll be there for you, I'll be there to fuck the bad.
Probably, it's your up-bringing? In a higher social status than us that made you this way?
Yes, that we really understand+tolerate it all.
We love your presence with us. We love all your jokes and laughter.
We love you as a sister and yeah! We just mean well for you.
Why in the heavens would we try to harm you?!
I do hope you ponder on all these. Im not reprimanding you...
I just want you to learn.

Btw, today after the 'quarrell', everything wasn't right anymore.
My gastrics were hurting cause I was in too much of anger.
I lost my stud. My ez-link card ran out of cash. Reason was cause, I was so worried about our friendship, so angry about your attitude, so confused about you.. I practically forgot everything around me.
Do you understand?! We don't want to lose you as a friend. But sometimes, you gotta grow up honey!

Okay, Im beezee like a bee.

Cm'on my fucking blogsong is the fucking dope pleasezzzesesese!!!!!!!!!!!

just need like booze to get you high and WOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
I will update soon soon soon. soooooooon.
I WENT TO TOWN TODAY, YESTERDAY!!!!!!!! :)

2008-04-03T22:33:00.005+08:00

Forget about saving my soul tonight.

You!
Thanks so much for everything.
I can't wait to see you tomorrow! Yaayyyyy!
Thanks for making efforts to fetch me fr Woodlands& bringing me in town.
Thanks for calling me every morning to make sure I go to sch.
Thanks for waking me up every morning@ 520am.
Thanks for everything.

No laaaaaa not my bf la please.
I don't believe in love, and boys are just... dickheads.
Ohwellllllll...................................
I did alot of productive things today.
Despite my sch's stupid seniors hating me like crap, for idk what reason.
Like ?!?!?!?! HUHHHH?!?!?!?!
1. I dont know you.
2. I didn't offend you.
3. If you dont like my face, dont look at me!!!!!!!!!!!
Stop staring at me for like fucking long then roll your damn eyes cause its like hmm...
just makes me feel like laughing cause like you think you're so cool.
And to one of em. PLEASE LA. YOU THINK MY SISTER IS SUPER HOT!!!!!!!
My sister just thinks you're a loser -.-
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.
OH YOU REALISE NO PICS? MY PHONE CAM SPOILT. NABEI CHEEEEEEBAI.

OH YAY MOMMY CAN I GO TO ZOUK AGAIN TMR!!!!!?!?!?!??!! v(^.^)v

2008-03-31T22:44:00.003+08:00

I said,"If you disappeared,

I'd be more than lost."

You. took it as a joke, didn't you?

Today was fine. I guess.
But you just keep me thinking, thinking, thinking..
I don't really know wth I did wrong. God. God. God. Save me.
This's the first time someone made me feel this way after so fucking long kay.
Everything just reminds me of. you.
I check consistanly just for your fucking messages and I see none.
Sigh........Goodbye la fuck.

After school, homed and I binged. Hiahiahiahiahia. Its the best feeling ever k!
Explains my fat self. Oh goshz.
Then slept all the way till 7plus?
Stupid Spencer had to wake me up and make me change and make up and everything.
He wanted to meet me :o
I said, Nooooo Im tired, at home, sleeping another day k.
He says, Nooooo you wake up now. now now now now.
Gives sad face. I gave up my sleep for him k.
But he's damn nice!
Had dinner with him and his two friends. He bought reds cause I said I don't smoke menthol.
He treated me dinner :) He's just damn nice kay.
ANGGGGGKORNGSEOWWWWW.
Full back plus half sleeve + half chest + full calf.
OMFG! So scaryyyyyyyyy! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAHA.
He's damn funny to laugh at. Swear.

K, I gtg. I haven't got my 22nd pictures, cheebye.

2008-03-29T13:12:00.004+08:00

So Im sorry, now don't go..

I've only few pictures for yesterday..
So this post is gonna be worrrrrrrrrrrrrrrdy.
Yesyesyes, you should've predicted. Another drink drank drunk incident.
Anyway, afternoon met up with Chaddy and Gaveeeeeen for lunch@ Just noodles.
It was yumyum, we caught up. laughed alot.
And hmm, it was quite funny. cuz I was like.. " CANNOT IMAGINE YOU 2 AND JOSH BALD SIA!"
HAHAAHAHAHA. WTF.
So we talked about how to fake mental to be excused fr army,
if suay go in army then custom make a wig blablablablabla.
Plastic surgery on .................. (ok la Gaveeeeeen I don't say la, don't wana make you angry!)
EYEBAGS. MY EYEBAGS.

Me: Eh. I feel like you 2. Caaaan you seee myyy eyeeezzzz? combs fringe-
Gavin and Chad: Hm, no....
Gavin: BUT I CAN SEE YOUR EYEBAGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHAHAHA ASSHOLE MOFO NEHNEHPOK. YOU CHEEKEN BAAICKSIDE.
OH WE WATCHED SHUTTER. AND WHEN IT ENDED, I LAUGHED LIKE HELL.
So we went Esplanade and bought cupcorn and we headed to meet Chad's sch friends! :D

Ended up, me and G decided to leave and meet Joshy cuz we were feeling veird.
veird = very weird.
Took bus down to Wisma..

Me: Eh, Gavin, call Josh. Ask where he is. Later he say he left wheelocks alr, at cine..
G: Aiya, reach there(wheelocks) then call!
When we reached.............
" JOSH, WHERE ARE YOU!!!"
"OH HAHA I AM AT CINE."
Me: NINABEI CHAAAAAOOOCHEEEBYE. HAHAHAHA.

So Gavin is gonna treat me dinner to make it up to me and bday pressie.

Met up w Josh, this girl that I dont knw her name.. :( AND HEESAY ( IDK HOW TO SPELL LA)
I thought his name was Linsay, lindsay, shesay, peesay, lisey.
After many "HUH?!?!?!" Gavin was like, HE SAY LAH!!! HE SAY. HE SAY. HEEEE. SAY!!!
HAHAHA. Then slacked@ Cine.
all the " EHHHH! HI!!!!!!! WHAT YOU DOING HERE! WHERE YOU HEADIN' LATER!"
" Ahhhhhh! DAMN LONG NEVER SEEE YOUUU!"

Hiahiahaihaia thats why I love cine. you get to see many happy people.

Soon me and G wanted to leave but the rest tagged along.
Bused down to Clarke quay. Met Chad@ Sahara AGAIN. Sheeshaaaaa.
Then halfway we left again to Homeclub.
Met Mervyn, Lily and co. ALL FUCKING WASTED OK.
Tsktsktsk. Slept awhile cuz I was damn tired by then. Thanks Josh for the shoulder!

Then around 1am plus, took cab down to Zouk.
1am k. My eldest sister, drunk and waster -.- Apparently she reached@ 9pm.
Tsk. Sent her home. then went into Zouk w Erjie, Jan, Bill(?) and a couple.

And while we were tryin to check our bags in.........
(we wanted to cut the queue.)

(Sis went in, only me and Jan outside.)
Man: Sorry girls, you gotta queue.
Jan: Huh, but we're with her.
Man: Sorry please queue.
Erjie: Jan, I tell Bill you're checking in your bag... and the bouncer dont let you in..
Jan: K.
Man face change when he hears 'Bill'
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHHAA. DAMN FUNNY.
So man lets us in. HAHAHAHAHHAHA.

Went inside, drank like 6,7 cups of martell greentea.
Went outside to meet Debra, Hweeli and .........?
Went back inside to makan first.
Went back to drink more. Played some game and by then, I was already pretty high.
I FORGOT WADS THE GIRL'S NAME.
She played with me and kept losing. Niche whisky half cup k! Hope she's okay..........
Left for Phuture, oh god I love phuture.
R&B the whole entire bloody night with Kelvin and co. Stef came!
Then I lost track of wad happened o.o
I know we drank more. Martinis and another jug. Apple shots.
I was dancing..................................
Kelvin was like: OMG JIA YOUR SISTER CAN DANCE!!!
Im like stop looks at the floor covers mouth and couth stone for a minute. continue.
Then Idk why everyone disappeared. Kenny and co came.
Till now I forgot how they loook like, besides knowing Caesar is like hamsterrrrr.

Phuture closed. We went Zouk.

lemme rmb what else I did k.
OH MY GOD I FUCKING DANCED TECHNO!!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I even took off my fucking heels to learn how to shuffle with Caesar!
OMFG. OMFG. OMFG. OMFG. OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!
Then........ I really dk what happened.
Next thing I was in the toilet vomitting my life out.
(I don't vomit if Im drunk, unless Im tooooooooooooo drunk.)

Then Zouk closed. We went over to Rave. Cabbed there. When we reached........
I merlion again. Tsk.
Decided we don't wanna go to Rave anymore cuz we were all over high.
THANKS TO WHOEVER THAT WAS CARRYING MY BAG. THANKZ.

Mcdonalds for breakfast. I slept everywhere I swear!

Kenny: JIAYEE! WHUDDD YOU WANNAH EATTT?
Me: looks at him. Piancakez. drops back down and sleep.
ALL OF EM: OMG OMG OMG PIANCAKEZ. HAHAHAHAHA!
-.-

My pancakes came. I put butter. I stare at the pancakes for 5 mins.
Goes back to sleep. HAHAHAHA!
I think his name was Daniel. He woke me up. "Eh eat leh."
" I WANNNN TO VORRRRMITTTTT. BRING ME."
Okokokokokokkok. and the next thing, I was vommiting in the toiletbowl...
Hugging the bowl like no shit was in there before. Sitting on the floor tho its wet.

Went back. I claimed to be "super hungry". I ravished 1 pancake 1 harshbrown.
And went back to sleep. Dan wakes me up AGAIN. "Eh eat leh."
" Im fulllllllll......."
So he ate all my pancakes :(

Ate and we left to take cab. When me and sis in the cab, suddenly they wanna Rave again.
Cus apparently when we were leaving..
'Kenny was kickin' trees.' WTF. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
So..... being STILL un-sober. I just kept asking Caesar, " WHY IS KENNY KICKING TREES?!"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Then half an hour later, I don't know wtf happen but we again decides not to go Rave.
?!?!?!?!?!
Then we waited 1hr to take cab back. Cuz everyone change shift our some fuck I forgot.
I slept at some place -.- on the floor. With Dan playing his psp sitting behind me.
When the cab came, I slept throughout and when I reached home w sis.
I slept and died. Sis still breakfast w Kenny.
WTF.
HAHAHAHAH, NOW I MUST GO DRINK SOME WATER.

Byeeeee!

2008-03-26T23:15:00.004+08:00

God-forsaken right to be loved.

Hello you all! My com is back up! hiahiahiahia.
Anyway school's been pretty fine. I laughed like hell today with Bong at hougang, kovan.
HEEHEEEHEEEE.

" EH! You always with Chad, very happy right!"
" Uh ok ah."
" Let me fufill your wish now..........................."
Messes hair to the left.
TADAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAa.

"Omg kill me."

HAHAAHAHAHHA! Swear damn funny la she.
My actual birthday was fine!
The class omg 3B1, omgomgomg.
HAPEEEEE BIRD DAY TUUU YOUUUU, HAAAAAPEEEE BIRD DAAAY TUUU YOUUU.
HAAAAAPPPEEEE BIRD DAYYYY TUU JIAHA YEEEEeeee EEEEeeee EEeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
HAAAAAPPPEEEE BIRDAY TUUU YOUUUUU.
Ahhhhh screamz clap laugh hahahahahaha.
-.- me coverz face and pretends nothing happening.

THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH.
tho i dont even know some of you guys' names! :(
you see, I'm a loner in class. haha!
Then out with Chaddddy, Chun Aik and Keline I think.
ANW CHAD PAID FOR EVERRRRRYTHING. LOVE YOU BB.
HAHAHHAHHA! Im so happy I watched semi-pro.
Me and love was like.............................. o...k.......ha...haa....
HAHA! Then dinner@ jap restaurent.
Yummy yumm yumm yum.
Love sent me back home! OMG OMG OMG OMG LOVE YOU LOVE XO MANY!!!
On the 22nd, thanks for everyone that turned up and wahtsoever.
it was fun with you allllll.
Thanks for the presents ( no matter if its cigs, cards, wadever.....)
HEEHEHE.

Once again, thanks you all one billion time! xo!

2008-03-22T01:03:00.005+08:00

Mascara.

Hey you all. Im sososososso sorry I can't update alot recently.
Really had the urge to update like a long long wordy piccy post.
But unfortunately, Im having a migrane now. So I can't really do it now.......
[edited]

Yesterday was not bad! :D Went tanning in the morning ALONE. yes,alone!
HAHAHAAHA, because I didn't feel like asking anyone along. Ahem.
Then after tanning changed make up everything. Met Qing sis@ Tampines.
We walked around and had our lunch together!:)
Headed to Hougang again -.- To Xalan house. Wake him up. Talk cock sing song.
Go find Crystal(Xalan new gf.) hell lah, she's 14, but almost same height as meeeee! wtf!
HAHAHAHA. Cabbed to town. Bought tix for the show Rule Number One.
Walked around town. Saw loadddddddds of people!:D
Ezraaaaa, Stef, Chev, Isaaaaaac, Rachel, Jenson, I forgot alr. Tskkkkkkkkkk.
Anyway, it was funz to thee max k. Hiahiahia. Me and Sis disturb them.

And sis is damn funny k.
Me: Takes fag fr Alan- Thanks ah, xoxoxoxoxo. (yes literally saying it out.)
Sis: WHAT?!?!!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?! :@

Watched the movie. Got so freaked out by the storyline I almost cried.
Don't blame me, I've no balls, small gutz. I ain't gutzy k.
Reached home around 1plus? :o Died on my bed.
Today...................................
I don't know what to do! Hope it'll be fine,

:)
Oh. Before I end.

Sonia Ang.

We've been good friends since secondary one.

Time flies, we're already in secondary three, you're alrd 15.

And in a few days time, I'll be 15 too! :)

How great does this feel! We're gonna take our I/Cs! Hiahiahiahia.

Thanks for being there for me, good times/bad times..

Being there when I cry, laugh, get angry all.

Tolerating all my stupid love stories and lame ass weirdo stories.

Going out with me. Lend me money when I'm tight.

You understand me the most, and the lame jokes you have never fails to make me laugh.

Im sorry you have to tolerate all my highness, etc...

Hiahiahiahia. Then if I detest a person, we'd bitch tghther about him/her.

You advice me alot. You always taught me how to be a better person.

Although we're in different classes now, I know we'll still remain the same :)

Don't be over-stressed in A1 k sweets?

Im so so so so glad I have you as a girlfriend/friend/bestie/loveliez/sister.

I love you millionz loadz manyz manyz. ♥

Gotta celeb our birthdayz soon together okay!

xo.

♥♥♥♥♥♥

K, I spent all my energy typing alll that.
Goodnight you all stalkerz.

And to you, whatever to you la. I'm nottttttttttt what you say I am.
Sighhhhhhhhh, look at yourself.
All you do is spread your legs and moan.

2008-03-20T22:15:00.003+08:00

Amorous Love.

Sunday - I went out with Hillary darrrrrrling, watched waterhorrrrze. Free movieeee :)

Monday to Thurs - school.

2008-03-20T19:47:00.004+08:00

I'm sorry I cannot take the pressure being your girlfriend.
You're too pressurizing.
I cannot take it.
Goodbye, and have fun screwing your life.
We had fun times anyway.
I tried my best already.

2008-03-17T19:32:00.002+08:00

I love you but sorry I got to go.

Dead after twenty-fourth.

(continue awaiting for picture post.)

Goodbye, my love.

2008-03-16T21:41:00.001+08:00

Just 1/100 of what happened today.

Interested? Gotta wait for the next post..

2008-03-16T00:08:00.003+08:00

Your love is a lie.

Did I mention me and cherone spent the half the time translating the song 'Hero - Enrique'
into chinese? And we sucked? HAHAHAHAHHAHA!
And I tried to learn how to dance techno but I failed horribly!
and in the morning, the fucker challenge me to blow O. HAAHHAHAA.
I lost also. cheeeeeken.

Your papa. says: dont cry. he make you drop one tear, i make him drop 10 mre tears.
Your papa. says: He let you lose one hair, he watch out!
{Yq sis is the best, :) }

AND HOR, DONT KNW WHO'S BIG MOUTH GO TELL AROUND UNTIL SIS KNW
ABOUT LAST TIME TAIJI K. CHAOCHEEBYE -.- We're no more 'Brotherz' k.

2008-03-15T17:49:00.002+08:00

Because you thought,

Ytd was damn ok. damnnnn ok. stares at Cherone-

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Woke up@ 10am 10AM LEH!!!!!!!!!!!:/ to meet Cheryl:D for study!

I missed her sosossososososososososososososososososo much k.

Tsk :) Then we went to study@ MOS burger. I didn't make it lah.

See me stupid worksheets and I'm like, headache, kill me please.

Then we did some wrk. I fell asleep -.-

HAHAHAAHHA! Then we talked cock, around 6pm Cherone came Bishan meet me.

We went Cold Storage buy bait. But apparently he says the fishes don't eat prawns!

Then we took bus down Changi Village.

I TELL YOUUUUUU. I TELLL YOU, FUCKING LONG K!:(

Cherone slept, I stone. My butt damn pain. HAHAHAHAHA.

Then we reached, he bought this bought thaaaat:/

Took cab down to East Coast Park.

Cb. I WAS STARVING K! I didn't eat the whole day. Cherone Cheng starved me k.

Omg. omg omg omg. HAHAHAHAH (jk lah, he's damn nice I swear.)

Ate@ Ecp. Yumyumyumyumyummmmmmmy :D

Happy liao loh! Then we go smoke. He bought me one pack Marlboro red. Thank you lah! :D

Then walkkkkk ALL THE WAY to jetty -.-

Cheeeeeken backside lah. So.. the whole night was,

- Switching position of the rods.

- Squeeeeezing the worms out, (DAMN FUN K! NOT GROSS! SWEAR!)

- Casting the rod out. (I screwed up alot of times, hiahiahiahihaiha, Cherone meiyou kill me)

- Star seeing. ( FUCKING ALOT STARS K! ALOTALOTLAOTLAOTLTAOTATAOTAOR)

- Talking/mess around/ be stupid/ be gay/ be er happy/ be tired/ smoking.

IT WAS FUNNNNNNNNNN LAHH K.

Thanks Cherone for the jacket. Then we walked ALLLLL THE WAY to Macs.

I TELLLLLLLL YOUUUU##$%#!! I almost died!

I was suuuuuuuuuuuuuper shag/tired/dead. I was telling him nonsense k.

Then ate@ Macs. We were happy!:) Hiahiahaihia.

Slack outside, smoked again. Then took cab home :)

Fuck cabs. Fuck cabs. Fuck cabs. Fuck cabs.

I reached home@ 9am and I died.

I just woke up, its 6plus. Should I go night safari? HAHAAHAHAH.

2008-03-14T00:52:00.004+08:00

My mom told me,

Hey you all big world.
Laugh laugh laugh die die die die.
Yesterday was pretty okay, woke up at 5plus went to Plaza Sing to meet Chad.
Dino called say he also at Ps. Then I went over to meet him :)
He's so funny funny damn fucken funny k!
Went over Parklane to pak pool and I got thrashed :( After few rounds, I dulan alr.
I don't want play, hiahiahaihaihia. Went Ben&j's to slack.
Then ate there, went over to meet Dino again. Went home with him :)
Dino ishzxxz moiiiizxzz tiiiiiraamiisuu nehz!:o
When Im sad, he take 962 here, when he sad, I take 962 there! Hiahiahiahia.
See, womenshi hiadikia! HAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHA.
Today, Mom and Dad brought me to Ps, and bought me my M)phosis top!
Then lots of food again.
Tommmmmmooorrrrroow, ..

:)

p.s: I know my blog song's really gay, but i rmb this song made me cry like hell.
serious.

2008-03-12T02:42:00.002+08:00

Once in awhile,

Did the picture scare you? Hiahiahiahia. That's Alfrey sister's Snoopy.

Apparently the other one's leg dropped off thanks to I forgot who. Tsk. HAHA.

Today's good! I guess. I really hope things don't change. I wanna be this happy! :)

Morning, woke up. played poker w my baby boy online again!

I WON THIS TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I THRASHED HIM! Hahahhahahhaha! yes! 12 - 8!

HAHAHAHHAHAHA I WON! I kickass.

then around 6plus I left home to City Hall to meet Harriet, Ander, Keith and Weixiang.

Me and Harriet apparently had some stupid conflicts and we were settling.

you shout i shout. Tsk. Smoked and I was very wrked up. Tskkkkkk.

But everything became fineeeeeee. 12312312131254523 people called and ask if I was gg Zouk.

Cheeeeken backside UNDERAGE BODOHHHHHHHH!:/

All the ahbengz and ahlianz cmfirm: Ehhhh zouk lehzxzx wo menzxzxz qu lzxhzxz -.-

OMG! Worse, I hear its fucking packed and all.

I might be going tmr, mambo night! HAHAAHHAHAHA. to all ya losers(except friends la) squeezing your assholes in Zouk/Phuture now, have fun man!

Even Kong, overage by god knows how many fking years said.

K: Eh girl, you going?

Me: WHAT?! NO?! YOU?!

K: Yea!

Me: Holy shit. What're you doing at an underage party -.-

He apparently works@ St James Power station. Shoot me?

Bought Chevvy her present and we 5 headed down to her chalet.

But apparently they all left to club except for Cherone, Akira, Shixiong :/

Me and Harriet went to kajiao. Played 21 w em and first round won 5bucks.

Pulled Cherone's blanket and he whined and sqium and squirm and shouted "Coldddddddddd!!!"

-.-

Then he laugh laugh laugh laugh and woke up -.-

So I was like, EH GUESS WHO'S HEREEEEEEE! GagagagagagagagagaGAGAGAGAA.

He's like omg omg omg squims more and goes back to slp for a while more. Pffffft.

Harriet and the guys left. I had to stay cause mom wanted to pick me fr there.

So I went back and played 21 again w Akira, Cherone and Shixiong.

I WON $22!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHHA.

Im happy. happy happy happy jump jump jump.

Went for a puff and Sx and Cherone brought me to Downtown macs meet my mom.

Saw Faizal& co on the way there and they joined us. Cherone went fishing -.-

Then saw Joshy!!! :) He couldn't recognize me alr!:/ he's like, 'who're you?' IM LIKE JIAYEE!?!

Tsk. basket. then mom dad me sis went for prata and headed home@ 2plus.

Which makes me here typing.

And I dropped my new eyebrown stud. $14 k! cheeken backside.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR :@

2008-03-11T14:00:00.002+08:00

Life.

Hey! Ytd was not a great day. Pretty sucky day.
But the shopping and eating part was cool.
(I havent eaten so much in a day for a veeeeeeeeeery long time.)
Reached town, met Bren :) Went to M)phosis to see and try my top. I look like bird.
HAHAHAHAHAHAH! But Im still intending to get it.
WHEN JEREMY CHENG WEIMING DECIDED TO GIMME BACK MY MONEY $$$$! 8o
Cheeken.
Then head to Cine eat Longjohn. Ate, bitched, talked, caught up, was happy :)
Laughed alot tho. Heeeeeeee. Gives a dumb face-
Walked out, B bought Subway. I saw three black dressed guys, freaked out, thought its mafia.
Dont dare to look@ them.
Suddenly.. " Jiayee." I stun. I turn arnd..
" JJJHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN!!!!!"
Hugszxzxzzxzxzxzxbighugxzbigbighugzx! Hahahhahah. Everyone was like O.O!
Then we went to smoke. they went for movie. Me and B continue our shopping.
Went to Taka's Delifrance for a hot chocolate. Bitched EEVEN MORE. And we shared a secret.
Hohohohhohohohohho. big secret :D Oh, Mrs Tng gave me Famous Amos cookies!
YOU KNOW. IM A BIG FAN OF THOSE. So, I finsihed it and the box is quite cute.
Then shopped arnd more. Went Cine, saw Manfred Wu. cheeeken cheeebye bastard.
(Inside secret)
Tghen went Parklane meet Rui :D Hhahaha, had dinner together.
We were thinking of wad to do. Rui say play arcade, B say play lan, I said play pool.
SO WE ALL DECIDED ON POOOOOL!
Hahahaha, I suck at it but at least Im improving! I won B one round, she won me one round!
HAAHHAAHAH! Then headed to Hougang. Wanted get my $$$$$ fr cheeebye bastard.
but he say: FUCK YOU LA I BUSY CALL ME FOR FUCK.
He treats me like dog.
Thanks for letting me know your real side. And how I've been a fool thinking that we can still be close friends.
If you dislike your bday present, you can always throw it away.
There's no sentimental value and it sucks, yeah?
:)
Came home. Something big happened. I cried like hell. My head was heavy, eyes was damn sore.
Baby cheered me up! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD
We played online poker till 5am in the morning w him thrashing the fuck outtta me! :(
3 - 11 ! OMG! HAHAHHAHHA.
Ok, ciao!

2008-03-09T14:48:00.005+08:00

[edited]
I look in the mirror now and I wanna smash it. I just ruined my hair.
My bod looks fatter than before and I look like Im DYING without my make up.
FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT AND UGLY. Kill me.
I think nobody understands how I feel.
Sighz, I wanna die die die die die die die die.
Ok, I wanna go get bang buy a car, maybe jump off a builiding, maybe get so dead drunk tonight there's no tmr,
maybe slit more of my wrists and bleed to death. maybe overdose on medications again. maybe bang my head on the wall.
maybe.. maybe.. maybe..
How I'd wish Im sleeping and God takes my soul away.
I bite my tongue stud and swallow the tears. I cannot cry. I cannot cry.
Crying makes me look stupid, its dumb to cry. I don't need you all to sympathize with me.
Im just some random screwed up fat and ugly bitch. no wait, slut. and I can't talk to anybody cause I'll get pissed at myself.
Hey, do you know how I feel? I bet no.
Its worse than anything. Really. rrrrrrrreally I swear. I don't tell people about my troubles because I know I'll get laughed at.
and that's sucky. really sucky. And I don't tell because I've big trust issues.
I don't like the one minute i love you the next minute she's a fucking bitch thing. I hate girls. really.
I hate boys as well. They think with mostly their dicks. Girls? their mouths and their holes.
Im too weird to be true. I suck I suck I suck. I've the worse personality on Earth?

119am - ok Im being stupid and crying. No, you can't blame me. I can't take it anymore.
my stomach still feels whiny. my head's thinking about everything, I can't wait for bitching session w B tmr.
What happened? I quarrelled with. what I can say. My Best Girlfriend found ever since Helena and Cheryl drifted apart fr me after P6?
We had alot of things in common. yet sometimes things we do, piss each other off. and we can't accept it.
I initiated the quarrell. I yelled. I shouted. I hurled vulgarities. She says: Its my fault k. my fault blame me. I got sick and tired of all that crap. So I shouted, " Dont fucking blame yourself. Its disgusting and annoying." She mumbles smth and hangs up. Leaving me in the wtf
kinda mood. So, almost in tears, I called Him ( the one that says I'll always be there for you baby.) And told him how fucked up I was.
Nyeh, he didn't unds. Worse, he told me he's going to Zouk on the 11th. Wellllllllllllll done. Overwhelmed, I hung up. Again. Idk why.
I called up Heyong. and did my complaining wrk. Hung up. feeling really puzzled about everything.
Being jealous for everything, everything that I see. Dan tries to perk me up. I can't. I can't.
Hey, I just fell out with the guy I that promises he'll be there. promises everything. and the girl that I thought was more than a bestfriend.
How bad can that feel?!?!?!!?!? Sigh sigh sigh!
Dad comes home. tells me to fucking answer his calls. Yes, I quote, fucking answer his calls.
I said, I did! Hello, everytime you ans, its me picking up. its me me me! Mom and Siss doesn't give a shit k! Only me.
Yet you didn't trust me. Thanks alot. That helped big time.
I'm so fucking tired.............

Please don't be my friend , Im not worthy to have friends.
If I could choose, I'd rather be dead than alive. Isit possible to restart my life? Please?

Everything's not right, not right, at all.

2008-03-08T23:59:00.003+08:00

Love is dead, love is gone.

Hey you all!
Im blogging. Yea. In the suckiest mood ever.
I don't know why!!! :(
Anway, peektures will be up late.
Slept@ 5am in the morning, Alan Kuan bomb my phone make me wake up:/
Went to meet Alan, Sean, Alvin& co.
Headed to Boys' Hostel to find fetch Alfreyyyyy Sister!:)
Then talked alot, went back to Woodlands. I went to Alfrey's house while the rest sticked@ cwp.
Me and Sis talked alot. Sigh, oh love. love love. what's love. tell me tell me tell me :@
Around 3+ left Alfrey house, he went to buy smth w Alan& co. Zzzzz.
Sis, better keep to your promise. Sighs.
Went to meet Sonia and Heyong. My two great loves.
On the train down, a guy (which I thought was fucking hot/cute) he made a conver w me.
I laughed like hell. And he took my number. I gave :o Surprisingly lah.
Met em, ate@ the same posh indian cuisine restaurent. Thanks so much for the appletoy!!!:)
And also the cupcake!
And a few jellybeanz :) Then headed down to Cine, bought some stuffz.
Slacked@ Gloria Jeanz. Darrell came, they left. We caught The Eye.
I only watched the top right on the screen -.-
Came out, puff, saw Xw. died cause I miss her man.
Went home, saw Jonathan -.- Sian. Then I vomit agaaain and its disgusting.
I've alot of free stuff today!!! Coke fr town, and balloon! HEHEHEHHEE.
Helium is so fun to play with!

And, you wanna know what it feels like being me?
It feels. worse than. someone sliding millions of shattered glass pieces slowly on your face.

Tag replies.

Hillary - HAHAHAHAHAHHA. Ohman, ily la bubbletea darling!!!

Passerby - Yep, I was there :) Hahahaha, if I'm not wrong, you're the girl in school uniform? Hhahha :) M)phosis got nice clothes! Ahhhhhhhhhh! HAHAHAHAHA. tc.

Brenda - Looks fine to me :)

Heyong - Uh huhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Ily many k! :D

2008-03-07T13:39:00.002+08:00

Eh fucker.

Don't think that you're some short muscular cramped in a box.

Then I scared of you k!:/ You're sucha cheebye.

That time got problem at Kovan you so fucking no balls la!

If its any of my guy friends, they comfirm shoot back la! Please la hor.

Then still say what don't want find trouble. Ge lanjiao lah! Ugly fuck!

See Chad then don't know what, want whack him.

PLEASE LAHHHHHHH! -.-

Just because I hug and kiss him, you jealous. Then you ask so many people down.

Lanjiaoooo. If I not there Chad how?!?!?!?!?! LANJIAOLANG.

LANJIAOBIN. Yucks. All you tell me's that you wanna be my boyfriend.

Hey, I don't even know you well lah! Sickening.

Worse, you're gross! You're telling me weird stuff that freaks me out totally.

I cannot say anything but just go, " Haha, okay..."

But inside, I'm like: Duh, wtf?!

Yeah maybe I should just fucking 'leave you alone.'

Oh that day I called you? It was because I was BORED.

2008-03-07T13:27:00.002+08:00

Love is dead, Kerli.

(One out of the many great songs she has!)

She's reaaaallly good I swear!

2008-03-06T01:37:00.004+08:00

You can try spotting my pink cast in this two pics anw!

OK.. I was being abit.. bored today..

After heading out w Sis. Yeah. Anyway, Linton's an asshole.
Kaiheng/wadever sai Im not a your friend. Dont act as if you know me.

This two pissed my pee out. Cheeken.

2008-03-05T20:12:00.007+08:00

Crank Dat Soulja Ggggirl.

Hello you all!
Uh oh yes! I'm on extended mc! Meowmeowmeow. No school till term 2!
HAHAHHAHAAHA. Cause I've a cast on. Its hot pink!!! Omgz. Beembo.
I cried when the doc actually put the crap on me. Sixty six bucks. Barf.
OHOH. And the guy helping me put the cast actually said he wanna date me infront of my mom!!! That's like. Quite gutsy. HAHAAHAHHAA!
Mom was like sad to see me sad so she brought me to eat Macdonalds!!! Heehee.
And bought me flowers and balloons. Thank you Mom, xo!
Mom and Dad brought me to Tampines Maaall. And again, Mom bought me a headband.
Like wad? $11.90? HEEHEE! Mom lovesz me.
Din Tai Fung for dinner, yumyum.
Thanks Mom, Dad! :-)
Tonight's midnight movie I guess! :-) Omgz I think smileys like that are really cute!
Yea, then Mom and Dad gave me money to make me happier. Plus Dad's giving me daily basis allowance, hohohoho.
(Because I can't go out this week, and a few days next week too.)
Today Erjie brought me out for lunch. Had Yakun and Gelare.
HAHAHAHA, She's now going Zouk. Damn. Saw James@ Cwp. Hehehehhehee.

Taaag replies!
Heyong - HAHAHAAH No lor, doctor crazy! I was angry! :@ Rrrrrrrah!
Anon1 - Haha, thanks alot! My knee is fine I gues :-) Actually I can't see it cos' its in a cast now!
Boo!:( So I don't even know whether its black/blue/red/orange. Whoever you are, thanks! :-)
Anon2 - Oh. Thanks. But I don't look like Chev. HAHAHAHA She's cuter :-) And worse, my bangs are did by my friends. You know, snip snip snip in my room :( I kinda regret!!! HAHA.
Bbbbbbrenda - HAHAHAHA Yes, glllloomy Sunday.

OH YES! I'M NOT DEAD YET.
And, my birthday will be celebrated on the 22nd this month.
It'll be celebrated at my house and Raves. A club :-)
@my house would be afternoon to evening.
Might be opening two bottles. And yeah! 18& above (Actually.. just look 18& above!)
Will keep invited peoplez informed! xo! :-)

. .

\_______/

SUPPOSED TO BE A SMILEY FACE. DAMNIT.

2008-03-04T23:30:00.004+08:00

1. Zouk and Roses.

Fat arms.

Hello lover boyyyyyyyyyy! ❤

Bored while waiting for Chadddddd to come :/

Last peekture. " EH IM NOT A TWIT LOR!"

Yayz love came to visit me today. Talked all that.

Im a very bored person. He bought me chocolates and vitasoy.

So much for not bringing my "hottie" chocolate, asshole.

I still heart your smell, you and your stupid hair.

Stop play with my fats and kiss me more. xo.

HEHEHEHEHHE BYE!

OHOHOH.

LOOK.

Im not addicted, the drugs are my friends. says: ii miss euu.

HAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAAHHAHAAH.

(I made him do it la!)

2008-03-02T21:38:00.004+08:00

I'm no more myself.

Mom. I aint rabbit rabbit hop hop hop hip hop. okay!
Tsktsktsk what's with the 12 carrots and tomatoes and a slice of pomelo.
HAHAAHAHHAHAA!
Today B and R came over for a visit ;) Thanks!
Had a good puff after so damn long. Oh yes did I mention? I surprised Josh 'korkor' with his birthday cakee yesterday! Hahaahha, he was a happy man.
I did have a puff with him. And we were talking. They like my hair. HAHAAHAHA.
And Im now thinking. Damn. Maybe my new hair ain't so cool ar.

" Ehhhhhhh, my hair okok anot?"
" Yeah what, nice what, I think you look damn cute."
" WHALAN EH."

I dont wanna look 'cute'. How the fuck am I gonna buy my cigz and alcohol now.
Okay. okay okay okay. B and R came. Went Cwp for lunch. bought my band. Me and B have the same one! HAHAHAHAA. Jieeemiezxzxzxzzx. (okay you can shoot me)
Talked cock. Rui slept on my sofa. Tsk. Ate Josh's cake cause that stupid godzilla forgot.
And I doubt he'll come back and get it so oh well.
Okay tmr's medical check up. Tues's sch. I think doc might gimme 2 days more mc cause the knee aint working well well well well bad. Aw. I am gonna request that I take the lift for the next few weeks or Imma complain Sharon Teng for breaking my knee.
Heh.
(like all you want me to do)
Meowz.

Ey, try this. Go youtube search gloomy sunday suicide song.
Click first one. And see whether you'll go commit suicide after listening.
If you actually you know, die. Please dont blame me. God bless. Now Imma go listen my gloomy sunday. If I actually ever stop blogging fr this post onwards, then..

till then, xx!

2008-03-02T00:43:00.005+08:00

I can't leave him alone.

1. my colourful windmill. 2. I know I got big mouth. show you lor. 3. OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HEEHEE.
5. fucking UNGLAM BODOH. Now you know why me and Heyong laugh like bloody shit when we're tghter in SCHOOL UNIFORM, without MAKE UP. OMGOODNESS. Unglam, unglam, shakes head.

NOTE: ALL PICTURE WITHOUT MAKE UP.
(at least I dare to show my face wihtout make up okay!) bye! xo!

2008-03-01T19:44:00.003+08:00

She used to be the sweetest girl.

Kill me. Jeffree Star is pretty hot. Close up. Really. He's kinda coooool.
but Im still a hardcore MarilynM fan, hehehehe.
Okay, so today lovelies came over for a visit! Lied to me that they didn't bring anything.
(Well, obbbbviously knowing them for so long, I knew they were up to smth)
They came. I saw Sonia hiding smth behind her, Im like hiahiahia dont bluff me ah!
HAHAHAAHAHA THEY'RE HORRIBLY ADORABLE AND I LOVE THEM LOADS. SWEAR.

They brought me a really colourful and big windmill(?) Although Sonia claims there's a bigger one at the shop so Im like. Huh why never buy the bigger one for me!!!
HAHAAHHAAHA. And also a box of chocolate eclairs. Thanks so much my dears!
Had pretty much fun :) Sat at my bed, talked talked laugh laugh laugh laughing laughing smile.
I was hungry so Heyong cooked for my Korean kimchi instant noodles.
WHICH WAS REALLY GOOD I SWEAR. So our lunch was, timtams, noodles, fruit cocktaillll :)
Seeeeee, my girlys are like the sweetest people please.
Used thee com. laughed@ ugly people. Blog shopped!
I wanted to cut bangs so I just asked the two idiots to help me snap snap snappppppp snappy. gone!
HAHAAHA NOW I HAVE BANGS.
and Darrell thinks I look really cute(Idk why, he havent seen em tho)
heehee. I look like a bowl. But I love my bangs. Thanks to Bong and Sonia ;)
Meowz, sent them off cause it took an hour to cut me hair. REALLY tiring I swear!
HAHAHAHAHA. I have peektures but not so soon eh.

Oh yes, Harriet came over ytd with a hugggeeee get-well-soon flower that is currently dying.
HAHAAHHA. but Im hanging it on my wall w the zouk postcards. like I always do to the flowers she gives to me ;) Thanks hon. Watched drama whilst she lovey dovey w her Jojo aka Joevin. Can't stand it. maokia. HAHAHAAHAH! Yes. then we talked alittle and she went home cause she was dizzy. Aw well takecare babe. Tsktsktsk. Lezzysex.
Idk why Darrell calls me Lesbian girl.
but oh well I wanna turn Lesbian. Eh, Fyona aka Jeremy's ex girlfriend. Lets get tghter.
HAHAHAHA You're so hot.

I finallly realised how much I need my girlfriends soo much more than very annoying boys that claim they know wtf is love :)

2008-02-29T11:25:00.004+08:00

MarsCandyKills.com

Learn more at MarsCandyKills.com.

This video actually made me cry cry cry cry cry.
Esp the kitty part.
Fuck Mars Candies. Immorallllllllllllllllll.

This is just one of thee many vids. I tell you. I tell you. I tellllllll you.
I watched till me jaws dropped and I almost just died okay.
I WANNA BE VEGETARIAN. YES. NO PIGS NO COWS NO CHEEKENS.
Kill me 15 yrs of fucking life of meat. Omgz, now I have to go reflect on myself.

STOP ANIMAL ABUSE! :(

2008-02-27T10:53:00.003+08:00

Jealous, Jealousy, Jea-lousy.

HELLLO STUPID WORLD. Lemme update about my crazee life right now.
Yes, nwonownownownowwnow NOW.

a) Anybody, look me in me eyes and tell me you love me.
b) I feel like a fucking pig growing horizontally cause I've been eating, getting drowsy, talking on the phone, computer, dvd, teevveee. Dying lah actually.
Tsk.
c) I've been going to the saloon to get me hair washed cause my stupid bandage can't touch water. How cool is that?
d) Irrelevant people are pissing the shee shee outta me this few days. For example.
J: You know hor.. blablablablalbalbla."
C: " huh?what?huh?"
At least for 30 times. omg. so Im like " WTF OKAY FINE I CANT TALK TO YOU ALR, BYE!"
( I guess J and C really doesnt make a heart afterall!)
or else its..
" Tell me why you're like this!!! I don't wanna see you like this!!!!"
" There's nothing wrong with me, you can't cure me anyway."
" JUST TELLLLL MEEEEEEEEEEE"
" OMG I HAVE NTH WRONG WTF"
Seeseeseee. omg.
e) I dont unds why people must bitch about me sooooo much? Im not very pretty what! I have my flaws also what. Aiyerrrrrr! I take pity on myself this time.

f) Im reminding myself not to fall in love love love love love love love love. no.
tata, xo!

2008-02-25T21:33:00.002+08:00

Superwoman never dies (;

Hello all! Thanks for all the concern you people gimme kay!

Jiayee's superwoman! Superwoman won't die so easily wan lah!

Today, I collapsed in school during pe! :( Boo. Wth.

My knee got dislocated AGAIN! But this time is left knee, wtf, haha!

Then I was brave enough and not cry, and laugh instead -.- I'm like that one lah.

Tsk. Then ambulance came! And I got sent to hospital AGAIN!

Jabs& lotsssss of EC gas made me drowsy and nauseous.

Talked to the paramedics till I like omg die. They're so funnyyyy!

Me: Eh, got seee blood before?

P: Yeah, what kind? Dead? Alive?

Me: Errrrr,(drowsyyyyy), Both. HAHAAHAHA!

P: Yep!

Me: Dead corpse smelly?

P: Give me your number, when I know I msg you.

Me: -.- !

Then doctor says I've high flexibility rate that's why I can be a very good ballerina/gymast.

Tsk, wait long long ah, I'll never go twist me bones.

Then the nurses were damn nice. I was sent to Kk hosp anyway!:D

Dad and Mom came. They were like, sian.. AGAIN?!?!? Tsk.

Then halfway after the observation, I cannot take it alr, I was tooooooo drowsy and seh.

And I kept vommiting. So I reached home and slept all the way now.

My knee's fine, I can't walk tho.

Yayz, my lovelies are coming to visit meeeee! Soooo happy!:)

byebye!

(This time, I didn't call you)

2008-02-24T16:39:00.003+08:00

Please don't blame Edison Chen :( I think he's so kelian.
Me wants to hug him.
Yeah he's a sex maniac. And blablablabla.
But he definately doesn't deserve all these.
Fr getting whacked to court cases to whatever.
Th girls were doing it willingly, right?
:(
Poor Edison. I mean he's so cute, all the girls'd prolly line up
to get fucked by him. Like omgz, how can you all blame sucha cute thug!

IM ON HIS SIDE.

Btw, omgomgomgz, all the smokey smokey blurry blurry cold cold place with carlsberg that sehs the fuck outta me out of like 6 cans(Thanks Jimmy for disallowing me to continue to drink) and ciggiez that smoked my brains out and all thee laughter and laughter laughter laugh laugh laugh laugh. and all the talk talk talk. shout shout shout. hug hug hug. roll eye roll eye. Nice smelly Jimmy,very sweet Sister Qing, Stupid kaopeikaobu Weiliang, very tall Daniel. I am going to die and faint.

2008-02-24T00:37:00.003+08:00

Wjy, your superwoman.

1. I was veryvery bored. 2. HAHAHAA, Sister's phone. 3. Squad and Sis loves that peeeeekture. 4. They think Im hot(I dont, I think I look like a moron)

Hey! Today was pretty fine.
Met Sister@ his house w Squad in the early afternoon.
Srry I pangsehed alot of people :(
Sonia, Heyong, Fusion people, and Annice and Andy.
I was really tired and I slept at his house.
Love all his 7 dogs. Omgz. HAHAAHAHAHAH!
Then we were talking bfore I was sleepy, I said it feels like childhood.
Cause we three all sprawled on the bed. talking talking talking laugh laugh laughing :)
Kajiao each other like nobody buisiness.
Then Squad watch his Avp, me and Qing buay tahan. sleep.
Then evening woke up, went shower all that. Left for Bedok Reservoir.
Cabbed down and met Jimmy!(:
went down to lao eh's house and cause it's his birthdaaaaay!:)
Then Marrcus came.
Slowly everyone started to come. We(me qing marrcus jerm and co) supp to rep them to go for songkar. But end up they ask us dont go.
Then only Jerms and co went down ^^
Had roudns and rounds of Carlsberg and red wine! Cigerette boxes everywhere, almost emptied.
Living room super cold(aircon) and windows and doors closed.
Poor Xiaona had to go into the room to tv. cause she's pregnant! Congrats!;)
Then talk cock. Weiliang they all came.
So we were talking and the laoeh keep making fun of me!!!
He keep asking which guy there I like. I say none. BUT! I think Jimmy's the cutest.
no, I dont crush/love/like a single bit of him I swear.
Then Weiliang's friend ask me if I wanna take his bike go home, he got extra helmet.
HAHAHAHA! But nvm, end up Joel and his korean gf come, we slack awhile more.
Laugh and alll then left.
Cabbed to Sengkang and to Jimmy's god sis house. Slack awhile then I went off cause of my reallllllly bad headache. Fr all the smokey smokey bad bad blurry blurry places.
Oh god, Im happy to be home.
But oh well, it was fun!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNICE!!!! :))))))))))))))

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAO EH!!!! :)))))))))))))))))))

2008-02-21T20:38:00.002+08:00

I love Bella tan bibi more than Charmander (:

2008-02-20T22:06:00.004+08:00

I fell in love with Her.

1. Zara dress. 2. Sorry the boob part very tight. 3. Wed13 is th new sexy(no worries Mm, I still think you're fucking hotter ten times. ily muack)

Today was quite okay, after sch met Chad and Jon@ Nyp.

Awkward yes.

HHAHAHAHAA. High lah!

Wed13 ooooomigosh is so sexy i love.

Ytd was w Harriet the whole day. Tsktsktstkstks. What else?

I think Audrey Chia scares the shit outta me.

Sexy but scary. Pretty girls w a bitch inside em.

Listen to this. I love.

Ciao!

2008-02-18T22:27:00.005+08:00

♥不在乎天长地久,只在乎曾经拥有

You never failed to make me cry.

You never failed to make me laugh.

You have always been the reason for my depression.

You've always been the cause of my silliest acts.

You've seen me cry, smile, laugh, commit, love, embarrass myself, hurt myself.

You hurt me deepest.

My heart's already broken and has never been mended.

I try my best.. to always defend you.

When people talk shit about you, I defend you. I say no.

I refuse to admit the face that they make you sound like an asshole.

I hate it when people critisize you.

I hate it when people act as though they know us so well, they could see everything.

They tell me how bad you've treated me.

I say: Its the past, why bother?

Inside my heart's unhealed wound's prowled(?) open again. Its bleeding. bleeding badly.

Im lost. My heart no longer beats for you.

My heart no longer flutters at your name.

My heart doesn't belong to you anymore.

But, I've got so used to be with you. It kinda sucks cause Im afraid/terrified of loving again.

You caused this to happen.

Kissing someone else doesn't feel the same.

Hugging/being in someone else's arms just makes me uneasy.

However, kissing you and being w you still feels so safe.

With you around, the world seems bright.

I feel so safe, its like, even if the world ends at that moment, I'd be dying happily.

I can't forget you.

I don't love you like I used to.

But, Im sososososo used to you, its just weird.

I miss your smell. I miss you.

but, its goodbye.

One day I'll be on the streets and you'll be looking at me,

thinking how Im supposed to be happy without you.

By then, I'll be able to smile and say hi.

Instead of being your fool and letting you make use of me again.

Those hugs, those kisses, will be long forgotten.

I hate you.

2008-02-16T21:39:00.003+08:00

Bestfriend Love Y

We're sluts but you love us.

Im crazy. omfg.
I give her the: Nnbccb later I gonna whack you! but please know I love her!
HEEHEE BROWBROW NICENICE?

We sit@ cine's long john fr day to night -.- serious.

I AM PAJIAO.

bestfriends camwhore.

My face looks squashed.

Wayung make up on my dance performance. ugly. fugly.
LAUGH. JUST LAUGH.

Love me hairband.

2008-02-16T13:20:00.003+08:00

Goodbye my lover.

wo bu shi superwomen. wo you emotion. wo ye hui koo.
CAN YOU ALL FUCKING UNDERSTAND?!?!?!!?
I look really happy(yes). Im cheerful. Im happy-go-lucky.
BUT I DO CRY TOO! Im human. really...
Tsk.
Anyway, yesterday was alrights. Went home and change all went out.
Met Baby(Harriet)@ Wdlands. Omfg I loveveveveve her so many!
I bought her her Vday present(Kinder bueno), she bought me small small vitasoy.
WHICH EQUALS ULLLLTIMATTTEEEE CUTENESSS!(:
Then went to town, as usuallllll lah k. Straight to Joe Wang. Got my brow pierced.
Yipeeeeeee!:o Joe Wang's apprentice so cuteeeeeeeeeee HAHAHAAHA.
Anybody that saw me in slippers walking around in town. Im sosososo sorry.
I borrowed his slippers to walk to get money/food. cause heels are sucha pain in th ass.
Pei Halliet@ town for awhile. Bought some things. Talked quite alot.
Love that fucking bitch truckmuch. Hehehehe.
Josh cameeee. he's so funny. he left. Soon after I left to find Qing Sister, Jimmy, Daniel, Xiaona, dunnno who and dunno who.
Tsk. Stupid Jimmy is so annoying. HE ATE THE COOKIES THAT I BOUGHT FOR QING SISTER! I don't like!!!
Then mum came to fetch me home cause I was having a super super bad bad headache.
Today, Im staying home(I hope, I think, haha)
BYEBYE!

tag replies:
Stephanie: Yeah okay babe, would link you up!:)
Heyong: VDAY MAKES ME BARF. But your present make me laugh:D
Smileyface: Hahaha, okay, thankyou but Im so-not-hot. eeeeeee.
Sonia: HAHAHAAH! I love oreo ice blendeds w lotsa pearls! welcome darling!
Brenda: PRETTY TRUE.

2008-02-14T21:08:00.003+08:00

Vday makes Jy barf.

This ugly picture shows how ugly vday is.
hate it. Omg. not really, just hate this year's really badly.
Cause fucking plmgsss actually set our first three papers on this fucking day.
and tmr there'll be E math and Geog.
Wad a smart school filled w shit and unthinkable brainless zombies.
Momma, why you make me go in this cheeeeebye school :(
I do have dates. ( NOT boasting) I would like to hang out w my girlfriends.
and drink bubble tea but I CANT!?!?!?!? WHY?!?!?!?!?
Cause I have to mug like fuck.
(Im mugging while blogging)
Math killed like 99.99999999999% of my brain cells.
I almost cry/scream/die while doing the completing the square shit.
Out of despair, I called Jonathan. He helped so fucking much!
Yayz, thanks hon. Now Im on thee phone w him and he's helping me figure out how to do.
Xsquar - 16x-10=0. Pffffffft.
FUCK VDAY. FUCK PL.
THANK YOU JONATHAAAAAAAAAAAAAN.

2008-02-12T21:10:00.000+08:00

You don't know women.

Hey world. Haven't schooled for two days.

Because Im sick.

To the bitch that said I had a hangover Fuckkkkkkkkkkkk you upside down inside out.

You fucking whore. Annoying. You annoy the fuck outta me.

Although I dunno who isit, but her trap is really big.

Probably got fucked a million times. Tsktsktsk. shut that big hole of yours.

Try stuffing smthing inside, will probably help. Bitch.

Ytd I had some kinda 'disease' I name it! HAHAAHA. But its 'feng mo'

Its so awfully gross, I was so fucking fucking freaked out.

And tmr, I'll be back in school. sian half.

YEAH. NO HANGOVER. DID NOT DRINK ON SUNDAY/MONDAY/TODAY.

CHEEEEEEBYE KANINA KANALAN KANAAAAAAAASAAAAAAAAI!

NO HANGOVER. NOOOOOO HANGOVERRRRRR.

2008-02-10T01:05:00.001+08:00

Stars in your eyes,

Hey worldddddd!
Today was pretty fun!:)
Met Jingren moomoo@ Penin. Slacked, ate.
Saw Feo&co.
AND STOP MAKING FUN OF MY TITS LAH YOU ALL FUCKERS.
I KNOW VELI BIG LAH! Tsktsktsktsktsk!
Went down to town, did some self-shopping alone,
went to Far East met Harriet& Darrell!
Saw Jocelyn and her bf, sat tghter and talked while Justin came.
Went up to eat and I was bored so I bought a bottle of Heineken.
THEY DINT CHECK MY ID OMG! LOL!
Then went over Cine to slack. Oh yes, Pork& his gf quarrelled over me, how nice.
All I did was, when I saw Pork I say: PORRRRRRRRRRRRRK!!!!!
Thats all right -.- cheebye.
Then@ Cine saw many many many many people dont wish to name who am lazy.
So, trained home@ 11plus.
ANGMOH WANT MY NUMBER AR CHEEBYE HE FUCKING CUTE LAR!
I SHOULD HAVE GAVE LAH! CHEEBYE HE'S SO CUTE I WANNA DIE ON HIM.
HE WAVE@ ME AND ASK ME NUMBER STILL SEND ME BUS STOP.
AH CHEEBYE I REGRET LIAO LAR!
HAHAHHHAHAHA, but he's damn hot, seriously.
Ohhhhhhhhhhh,blond boys.

Sayonara, I promised Ryan I'll church tmr!:)

2008-02-09T12:43:00.000+08:00

我不配

Hello world! How was your Cny?

Mine have no/little peektures and I'll try to upload asap!:)

Wednesday.

It was thee performance for the ahpei ahbu@ my school.

Stayed back aft the concert, tsktsktsk, but nvm, it was kinda fun!

HAHA, was pretty happy. Just that I forgot one part of the dance.

:( Tsk, memory not good lah kkkkkkk! TSK!

I love Heyong, Idk why! HAHA! I heard her screaaaaam: Go Jiayeeeeee!

HAHAHA END UP KENA SCOLD! HAHAHAAHAHA!:x

But still, I love you Bong! Muahhhhhhhh!:)

Aft that was reunion dinner w my family, had it@ my uncle's place.

As usual, it's those cosy small cottage house (altho they moved fr condo to flat)

Tsktsktsk, gambled, ate& also watched Silent hill for th second time!

HAHA, thrilling. hohohohoho.

Then homed@ 11plus, not bad lah, quite fun!

Thursdayyyyyyy.

Woke up early went my Auntie's house.

Bigbigbigbig house, HAHA! Got angbaosssssssssssss,

I've very little lah! Don't ask me how much lahhhhh!

HAHA. But dad& mom gave me a pretty hefty sum, :D

Went home and mom prepared f th dinner later in th night.

My family hosted th dinner!:o

HAHA! Then cousins (like, Yonghao Yonghan) came!!!

Tsk, gambled again, ate and talked cock. teevee.

Then my sisters and cousins left for clubbing/drinking.

(cause Im 'underage', to them, so I've to stay home, cb)

Whatever la, supposed to meet Justin aft that@ town.

Then smthing happened, tsk my night was screwed, I went crazy.

Fridayyyy.

IT WAS TH FUNNEST DAY OF Cny!:)

Was realllllllly tired.

Morning left for Frankie's house. Wore some big red checkered formal shirt& stockings.

Frankieeeeee likeeee :) He say very nice! :D HEHEHEHEHEE!

Then slacked@ his house talk cock first.

He's sooooooooooooooooo cute!

He sang this song to me, but he changed th lyrics, partially.

Tsktsktsk.

Then I let him sleep ( FOR TH FIRST TIME OKAY!)

I used com.

This is smth fking stupid btw me& him.

F: Arbo Valentines day we go for candlelight dinner lah!

Me: Huh. Veryyyyy cheap, hor?

F: 100+ only okay whaaaaaaaat.

Me: Tsk, scully you bring me go beach light 2 candle& gimme Mcdonald ar!

F: Mcdonald?!?!?!?! No lah! Chicken Rice!!!

Me: Th one doller one right! cb you.

F: No lar, 2 dollar lar, 1 dollar still must waste busfare go there.

Me: WHALAOEH!

F: Wah you very creative, okay! Vday we do that.

Me: I DONT WANT GO VDAY W YOU LIAO LAR!

Then@ 5plus left w his family to his relatives' big big house. Damn nice lah!:)

He wore blue checkered formal shirt! Hehehehe. I love it when he dresses like that!

Talked cock everything.

Then drank alot ar, I was like damn seh, Thanks to Tequila Pops.

TSKTSK! -.-

His family's damn nice to me okay!:)

Then we went walkwalk! He carrrrry me! omfg! I was damn shocked.

Played swing, slack@ playground.

Veryveryyyyyyyy romantic okay! :o Then went back, tsk.

Watched tv& I say: Eh! Vday watch P/s:Iloveyou can?!?!

Frankie: HUH?! PAISEH I LOVE YOU?!?!

Me: WTF.

His daddy drove me to town, then I met Justin& Harriet& co.

I was damn damndamndamn seh alr.

Then aft awhile, I was pretty okay so we were deciding what to do.

Smoked everything, felt like crap cause my gastrics& head felt funny:/

Met alot of people.

Then went to play pool, then caught th movie P/S: I love you.

Tsk, trust me, it sucks big time. I was falling asleep.

Aft th movie homed@ arnd 3plus. Damnnnn tired.

And, today Im going gaigai!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bye!

2008-02-08T11:59:00.000+08:00

Im so tired, Im so exhausted.
Will blog about my Cny soon okay? :)

Now, Im going to change then head to Frankie's house.
He wants me to go his relatives' house w him -.- keesiao, he sookoo alr.
HAHAAHAHAA But I don't really mind cause helllo!??!?!! I GET ANGBAO!
Extra cash $.$

My life now, is a screw up. Don't dont dont ask me why.

This' th song when me& Black(Vik!!!) were heading to Hougang Green.

He told me so so so much.

And everytime I lisern to this song, my heart feels like crap.

But still, it's damn nice :)

But now, me& Vik are less than Brothers& Sisters, less than great friends.

Less than the kind that're able to talk our hearts out.

Less than normal friends.

A hi, then a goodbye.

I've changed, you've changed, we've all changed. We lead our own lives now..

I miss you Bro, :)

It hurts me, too.

2008-02-05T16:39:00.001+08:00

You don't know how much this hurts, really..

I.. cannot take it anymore.

Sigh.

Please don't try to fucking understand me, because you can't.

I miss bubble tea sessions w Bongbong& Sonia :(

:( :( :( I missssss them so much lah, sighghghghghgh!

I need some fucking shut eye, cause I don't know how to face this world.

I don't know how to face this fucking fucked up reality.

" Its good uh, to see you always so cheerful in school!"

Thanks Mr. Lim, but things aren't what you think,

Im really really not not not happy, at all.

Dear God,

Take these misery away fr me.

Take me away. Please.

2008-02-04T23:06:00.000+08:00

1. Now tell me my Charmander's the sweetest thing on this entire fucking world. 2. That's me and some emo boy called Chad, hahaahhaha! 3. That's me again, w my baby harriet, they bitch i love pretty fucking much ;) 4. Harriet, me& Chad. Both so emo except me, the happiest one, envy? they both love me anyway! and omg, i know my boobs are showing, dont look ar you tikopehssssss! 5. JUSTIN YOU SO FUCKING TALL LAH CHEEBYE.

2008-02-04T19:11:00.000+08:00

Dont say you love me.

{Smile, and maybe it wont feel so bad}

I feel so fucking stressed out now, its unbelievable.
I cannot cope with jealousy, love, parents, studies all at one time okay.
Tskkkkkkkk, I thank you boys for your attention, your 'love'.
Give me some time please.
Dad, Mom, I cannot cope w all the nonsense you're giving me.
Mom, I know you love me, you want me well. But.. Tsk, you know.
Dad, just fuck off, I cannot talk to you, its difficult.
Tsk, 2.4km run today, I finished in like 16 minutes.
Dance practice after that, then stayed back for more rehearsals till 5,6?
Im totally drained out and tired.
I just feel like breaking down, thre's Geography and Lit test tmr, :(
I haven't read my lit book yet, Map reading's still okay.
Oh God, please please please help me :(
I miss my Fcks, Jcwm.
I need Chinese New Year, I need a break.

What they don't know is,

I cry too.

2008-02-03T22:30:00.000+08:00

Tsk, Motherfucker. You don't tell me what to fucking do.

I don't love you.

Send me to girls' home, I don't fucking give a damn.

The most I'll just go kill myself, I swear.

I won't fucking get sent to girls' home, I'll kill myself, I'll really kill myself.

So.. Try, &you'll lose a daughter.

Fuck off from me you mother fucker, you disgust me.

I fucking detest you. I hate you.

You're not my father.

I'll put up a bravefront, and pretend I'm okay.

2008-02-03T02:38:00.001+08:00

Will you?

1. Welcome to Vivocity, pigface. 2. Imma sexy mama. 3. I love reds, yumyum.

Sentosa w Love& Harriet was pretty funnnn! Saw Chevvvvvy! HAHA. She's so cute lah! Yup. The sun wasn't there :( so me& Harriet were a little tipsy after two bottles of Heineken ( I BUY ONE K! I BUY ONE!) And we slept in the rain, after Love left for his dinner stuff, blah! HAHA! Woke up an hour plus later to find the rain stop and I went to weeweee. then showered and left Sentosa for townnnnn. This bunch of guys kept pestering us for our numbers! But first time, these guys are really cute ( the way they behave)! They were happy cause we said bye, I smiled, one of them had same slipper as me (Black Havianas,sp) HAHAHAHAHA. Then towned, smoked, ate Chips& drank Vitasoy. Justin& co came. Went to COLLEGE, new shop opened@ Cine's 4th floor, many nice stuff. The boys go shopping. Love came back, saw Joshy&co. &I was realllllly tired after midnight so Justin's friend sent me back woodlands by Motorcycleeeee! Its really fun, he went damn fasssssssst! Thanks so much my dear! ;) Now Im exhausted.

Last wed - met up w Harriet, Feo& some ugly mofo. left for Squad's hse halfway! Saw Sister& Serene Jie! Damn long never see already! HEHEHEHE. Qing was pretty shocked to see me, he thinks my dressing's like Kelly omfg. I wore heels skinnys topshoptop. Serene say Kenneth mei you me is his sun shi, HAHAHAHAA! -.- Then Scott thinks I became prettier! Yipeee!

Last thursday - Went shopping w Momma! :D Bought Bag, Stockings, Dress! :) Spent quite alot, thanks momma, love you momma, muah!!!!!!!!!!! ;)

Fridayyyy - Love came over my house! :o went grocery shopping w him, feels so sweeet, like married couple!:) Then bought bikini! HAHA. Love help me choose one k! Then went over to my house to bake cupcakes, ITS DAMN NICE KKKKKK?!!??!!??! Oreo ones. I tell you, its DAMN GOOD. why? cause its made w love fr me& C. HAHAHA, To my darling Halliet, :)

Thats all peeps, im dead beat! Goodnight! Muah! xoxo.

{Both taken in Jeremy's house!}1. I love my hair, its so nice thre. 2. Vitasoy, me& love's fav drink.

Love you all!

2008-01-31T00:42:00.000+08:00

Sex is not the end.

I hate my dad, I hate my dad.

Fullstop.

Gonna blog later, with pictures (; muah!

2008-01-28T23:11:00.000+08:00

I , I don't know why I miss you so much

Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch

You, you left me feeling high and dry

With nothing, nothing but the question why

Yeah you, I guess you had another direction

And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection

If you call me today

I'll say that I'm fine

But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice

It's just a lieYou knew what you had

You still walked away leaving me in this mess

My love for you is deep and meaningless

You, you knew what you were doing to me

And I, I guess I was too blind to see

Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad

But I'd do it again to relive what we had

(Damn that's sad)

There are many things left to remind me

Of a love that I just can't leave behind me

My love for you, is deep& meaningless.

2008-01-27T18:38:00.000+08:00

Lost without you Y

Hey people, I've lots of pictures but not now,
my phone's weirdddd! but by tonight/tmr I should be able to upload it.

Friday.
Was kinda fun. Met Harriet@ town after school. rushed like a mad dog.
Walked around, smoked everything.
Met Feo& co. Ate@ Far east, some guy keep holding me hand -.-
I was like !?!??!?!!?!?!? dies-
Then smthing happened& I shall not interprete cause its confidential.
I was sososososososo worried, scared, lost!
Thanks Ben& co that made me happier, a little bit.
Took the last train fr Jurong East home.
That night was so screwed up. Love fucked me after something happened.
Im sorry I've to be secretive kkkk? I don't want to also~
But it's just too confidential.
& that night was just crying th whole night w Love trying to console me.

Saturday.
Woke up duper early, like 8am?!?!?!?!
Frankie Chen lah! Took cab down Hougang, he paid!
(How surprising rightszxzzz)
Talked, I bought him kitkat!:) Then talked, mess/fool around, laugh.
And slept. I kept waking up to smoke. then back to sleep.
He's sososossoossoso huggable/warm/nice/yummy.
Left his house@ 4pm to meet the Lovelies (:
Debbie, Sonia& Heyong! Hahaha, they're so cute.
But I got pissed off cause my phone low batt& they didn't tell me they left for
Penin, and made me go Vivo -.-
Tsk, but whatever it is! Im not angry!(:
Then met Gattison& friend. Ate@ some, quotes fr Heyong, "5-star indian restaurent" !
It's damn goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood, omgomgomg!
It had like nice food/service/ambience! It's really good.
Like princess/prince/king& queen kinda chairs& tables!
You'll fall in love w that place.
I plan to go there w Love on Valentines'?! Maybeeee only lah!
S, H, D bought super many things! -.- Fr Zara to Esprit to Cotton on!
Im like damnit, broke :( Tsktsktsktsk.
I was so super high& happy, I almost died of being too happy.
Lol! Then they left& me Gattison& friend went town.
Saw Frankie Chen -.- ran away cause it felt weird seeing him again in th day.
Smoked& then left for home.
I went emoooooooooooooooooo in th train& yeah, Gatti say some guy kept staring@ me,
then he help me like diao him, thanks!(:
On th bus home, some guy say hello to me& I smiled back.
He went crazy -.- & keep saying/shouting to his friend: SHE SMILE@ ME OMG! SHE SMILE!
Clazi.

Sunday(today).
Woke up by Jeremy. Went Hougang.
Some stuff happened, I cried again. Tsk, pms lah kkkkk!
Went Vincent's house. Felt good to be in J's arms.
Sense of belonging :) 88-ed to Bishan, Jeremy's house.
Slept cause I was tired, so was he.
Talked alot, people surrounding us're changing.
& something fucking fucking fucking funny happened!!!
Omfggggggggggggg, but it's a secret!
Hahahahah, then slept woke up& went home, thanks bro for comforting me today :)
Then homed w lots of foooooooooooooooood.
Now, Im waiting for X-men to start.

Bye peeps, pictures'll be up soon! xoxo.

2008-01-26T01:32:00.000+08:00

Im sososo fucked up.

Ctyq, Im sorry okay? Maybe it's me.

Maybe we should leave each other alone.

Your girlfriend, your girlfriend.

Am I in any place of your fucking heart?

Hlxw, Im so fucking sorry baby.

If dying now can make you really fking happy, I would.

My heart hurts like hell,

I just wanna cry my lungs out.

2008-01-24T19:42:00.000+08:00

Mother. Fucker.

Hey you all, I've pics yeah, but my phone abit charchared now!:(

Gotta wait awhile kkkkkkkkkkk!

Anw, Tuesday was Towning after school w Harriet!

Saw Joshy& Shar! :o HAHAHAHHA, then Bugised, then homed.

I bought doughnuts for my love! :)

Then Wednesday was Nyp w my love! Hehehehe. Studied there, in his class.

Waited f him to finish his project:/ until like 10pm?!?!??!!?!

Then went outside to talkkkkkkkkk, home@ like, 11pm? Yeah. I was fucking tired/hungry k!

Then yeah, we missed 3 trainsssssss, no wait, 4!:o Hehehehehe.

I love Tanyiqing!(: Many many many! Hehehehehe.

Then today was Hongkong Cafe w Sonia and Heyong! :) Talked like fucking alot!

We gossipped for 3 hours?!?!?! OMFG!

We ate baked spaghetti, baked rice, condensed milk toast, dimsum, milk tea!

HAHAHAHHAHAH! And it was crazily fun! :o I love them loads.

Then 161-ed to woodlands and met up w Kage, Harriet, Roger.

Fuckkkkkkkkkk, Roger laugh@ my school uni.

( I TOLD YOU I HATE GG OUT IN SCHOOL UNI!) Fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkk :(

Then slack smoke went home :)

Tmr's a fridaaaaaaaaaay! Should I town w Harriet? or Doughnuts delievery for Fcks?!

Heh, can't wait!

I love you, Tay Yiqingggggggggggggg! Y

2008-01-21T19:53:00.000+08:00

1. Bang is my love. 2. Im a nerd.

{My last picture is make up less}

School was good! Heyong's house after school w Bubble tea, yumyum!

Crapped alot, talked alot. Omg Nickkkk, you're a childish bastard.

Haizxzx, your momma never bring you up properly, :( I pity you mre than angry@ you.

Sighs. You momma is a cow. Hahahaa, a puny brain poop cake like you won't piss me off.

OMG WHY AM I POSTING ABOUT YOU, Shoot me.

Anw, whoever's your girlfriend(tho i doubt you have one), I bet she's no eyes, no breasts, no cheebai :o

Again, not happy, sue me!

Thanks so much to th Anonymous, Bang, Nia! ;)

Yeah, then homed, Heyong lent me her mp3 and Im soooooooo in love w th song,

Ayo Technology by JT. Yalah, I know I very slowwwwww.

Haahahaha, but I had fun today leh!

2008-01-20T17:46:00.000+08:00

Exhausted.

Hello you all.
To Nick, WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTEVERRRRRRR!

Sluuuuuuu...haha forget it.

OMG ARE YOU LIKE GUY/GAY. You yucky poo.

Hahahaha, I hope your balls rot, your mother father sister brother ahma ahgong all die.

HAAHAHAHA. in short, I hope your whole family dies.

Then you go pick up poop in some zoo.

Not happy? Sue me.

Im sososossoso fucking tired! Omggggg, exhausted.

Ytd was reallllly fun! Went out to meet Heyong& Sonia@ Kovan.

Help them scold some ahbengzxzxz.

Then went to to Penin to shop. I dint buy anything, just walked around.

Sonia bought a vintage bag! & then we were taking pics and all.

( srry loves, my phone's down)

Then went to Cine and slacked and everything. Took neoprints!

Like after 4131231145131 years! HAHA, WE WERE BORED K!

Met Love@ MRT station, Paragon-ed for dinner(Delifrance).

Then me& Love headed to Ecp!(: Heheheh.

Slacked there, drank vodka, talked alot. Love's huggable omg!:D

Then went to grab some food@ 7-11 and we headed home@ 12plus?

Dad came to fetch me@ my house's kopitiam and we went to fetch my sister.

But, I slept all th way, I din't even know we reached home.

See how tired I ammmmmmmmmm!:/

Home sweet home, Love texted me and I went to sleep.

(btw, Nick, my friendsszxzxz alll think Im not what you say, God'll shoot you for judging)

Today was alright too.

Went to church, was duper late, the hall's aircon was down and irritating.

Saw Pang, Pak, Joel, Vian, Gracelynn& co, Glenn, Aeron.

Yeah!:) Hahahaa, happy. Cause all of them were like: OMG YOU'RE FINALLLY HERE.

Im like: YEAH, HEHE.

HEHEHEHE, Left church and went to Vincent's house to meet Jeremy.

I bought them fruit tarts( I so sweet lah!)

and Jeremy was like: You always know how to do this kinda thing.

Rahhhhhh.

Me& Jerms were upstars while Vincent& Shirleen were downstairs.

ME AND JEREMY NEVER DO ANYTHING OKAY. We just talked alot and fooled around,

like we always do -.-

Smoked, then slept for 2hrs, cause we were both damn tired.

Woke up and I left, I couldn't bear waking Jeremy up.

HEH. THAT'S ALL. IM DAMN HUNGRY, BYE!

2008-01-19T10:08:00.000+08:00

Dance Inside.

Hiiiiiiiii you all.
[edited/]
To Nick: No one's perfect. Neither are you. Reflect on yourself.

Anw, ytd was great!
After school rushed home and changed/makeup everything,
left home for Yio Chu Kang w Sissy.
Then I went to meet Chad@ his schooooooool! Omg his school so big.
I can get lost manzxzxz. On th way, Joshy& Gaveeeeeeeen called me.
Ask me wana meet them anot, I say Im w Chad,
then so we going meet them later.
Then slacked@ NYP for like pretty long, talked alot until we forget time -.-
we were supposed to meet@ City Hall at like, 7pm.
We talked till 7.30pm. well done right?! Hahahaaha.
Anyway, then walked around town, smoked, ate, talked, look for Justin.
Saw Andy, saw Annice. Yah, that's about it.
Went to home and I was blooooooooooooooooooooody tired, really.
Today, meeting Sonia& Heyong, then probably Jerms buddy, at night meeting Love.
We're going Ecp! Yayyyyyyyyyyy!
(Because I said: Whalao, tt day so romantic, but i was@ th right place w wrong guy lor!)

Hahah,
ginna just said this to me:
WHALAO IF YOU MY GF I COMFIRM DIE AR!
WHY SIAAAA I GOT TT BAD MEH!!!
You ah, not drinking cough syrup then is eating panadols, whalao!
DIAO.
IF I YOUR BF I SURELY DUNNO WHAT TO DO AR!
Then make me happy lor!
That time Jeremy what reaction sia!
Nothing lah, he just go keesiao, ask me stop doing dumb thing.

Lol, cb he, got girlfriend treat taoeh like this(JUSTKIDDING!)

HAHAAHA, okay, byebye!(:

2008-01-16T21:50:00.000+08:00

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No, I don't get tips/free tattoos/whatever.

But trust me, both tattoo shops do pretty tattoos!:)

Say thank you t me, Eric and Baldwin!

"I wanna go sheesha 12 pots, bitch around, gossip around, laugh, scream in a theatre,

shout, tan, drink 15 bottles of beer/vodka whatever,

smoke 20 cigs in one hour, die, slit my wrists, bleed& laugh about it,

make out at the streets of orchard road, jump on someone really skinny and break his/her bones,

laugh at an ant die, spray insectiside at a bee,

orh somebody's cb kang, fart at someone's ugly face,

tell someone she aint hot and pull down her underwear,

tell a stranger he's stupid, kiss a super hot boy. boy boy boy."

2008-01-16T20:26:00.000+08:00

JIAYEE WATCH CHINESE DRAMA TOO OKIEZXZXZXZXZ!
I love love love love 换换爱! And Devil by your side.
Cause it's all by He Jun Xiang! Omfgfgfgfg, he's soooo the sex please!
Killllllllll me, He's sooo cute/handsome/hot/omggggg the sex!
He looks so much better w Rainie Yang than Ariel, she looks like cock w him.
He should like, be w meeeeeeee, omgggggggggg, I will love him whole-heartedly please.
Hehehehhee, I can't wait for Saturday, I miss you baby!

And ofcourse, the soundtrackssssssssss!

2008-01-16T17:48:00.000+08:00

He's the reason for th teardrops on my guitar.

{Yongquan daddy's defination of love}

Number one: I finafuckingly know how to do 'O' w smoke.

Number two: I know how to do water fountain toooooooooo!

Yayyyy, so much for smoking in the toilet f the past week :o

Number three: I rmb I cried in Jcwm's arms during my MIA period.

Why? Long story.

Hougang Green-ed after work.

Met Black, Shuiching, Jcwm.

Put up a fake front infront him, like I totally-got-over-him look.

Then he sent me to th bus stop, saying: Wah, you got over me real fast.

I said, " Huh, okay, Im still waiting lah fuck."

He: You shouldn't wait lah.

Me: Blablablabla.

Talked alot& I was like: Shut up lah, dont say alrd, I wanna cry le.

Stupid mofo continue.

I CRY LIKE FUCKING FUCK -.- Hahahahaha.

Yah, I wna rmb this cause this's the first time I cried infront of a guy I loved.

hehehe, loved.

I dont love him anymore thank God.

That's all for today, I've nothing more to saaaaaaaaaay. bye!

2008-01-15T16:28:00.000+08:00

Darkness.

{photo grabbed fr love}

Hehehe, hello!
I forgot to tell you guys smthing really funnny on Saturday.
I was on th way to meet Love.
This guy on the train, I was reading, suddenly popped out his phone,
typing " Hi! Can I have your number?"
And I literally freaked out after reading and shaked my head very hard, squint my eyes.
and I din't dare to look at himmmmmmmm. yuck.
I told Love, and he typed me a msg on th phone, " Hi! (the rest is confidential) "
Fuckerrrrrrrr w many 'R's.
Mr Lim made me do the dance for the ahpeks/ahmas -.-
Wtffffffffffffffffffff. I was like screaming: MR LIM YOU UNFAIR LAH OMG OMG OMG!
And then, I was like, MY FACE DONT MAKE OLD PPL HAPPY OKAY.
Luckily, Brenda, suay enough, was made to join me, hehehhe.
We're doing modern dance and Im pretty excited.
I just hung up w Qing sis on th phone, he's really damn funny.
Oh God, Im sooooooooooo hungry :o
Love's at Pasirispark taking pics again, zzzz!

Im here without you baby.

2008-01-14T20:36:00.000+08:00

The whole club looking at her.

Goodbye to you,

Goodbye to everything I thought I knew.

You were the one I loved,

the one thing that I tried to hold on to.

I still get lost in your eyes.

And it hurts when everything becomes nothing.

You're my shooting star.

2008-01-13T21:13:00.000+08:00

Ink-ed.

Hello-hoh world! Im watching AVP whilst blogging!
Anyway, the two picstures above, please gimme idea of which to get.
As in, which's nicer?
Leave your opinion on the tagboard. Anw, Pork say 2nd one fr the left.
Then change the colour to pink, toned.
More ink on my body! :o
I don't know who I should get to help me do, Baldwin or Porky or Victor or Shaun?
:/ blah.
Today was boring anyway, I sat at home reading modblog, bmezine.
Tmr's school. And Im on a diet to lose 2kg this week! byebye!
I miss my sexy lover boy!:(

tag replies,

Heyong: Hahaha, who do you think it is?

Brenda: Yeah slut, I miss hanging out w you big time! 24 March honey!

Xiiao: Haha, Chad is not my boyfriend:) Thanks!

Jul: Hahahahaha, whatever!

Anonie: Oh, haha thanks but Im not!

2008-01-13T01:11:00.000+08:00

Hello you all!
Omgzxzxz, I miss Fcks badbad.
Friday was Bugis day w Momma!o:
HAHAHAAHAH GUESS WHAT! I got back my wallet :p
Thankkkkkkks to SBS! Hahaahaha. Goodjob/keep it up/muahhh/xoxo!
I didn't go for my model interview because..
Number one: Mummy says no modelling till 16!
Number two: Im afraid they cheat my lui.
Number three: I was too tired/lazy/wuhtever to go down to Plaza Sing.

So.. I just skipped it! Yayyyyyyyyy w many 'y's!
Bugis w Momma was good. Bought my new Body Shop eyeliner!
Muah you Momma.
Damnit, Chad haven't msg me. Fuck. Baby please don't fucking get drunkkkkkkkk!
Then bought this pretty sweet light pink topppp, quite nice!
And black skinnies number two. heheheehe.
Had dinner w Mommma, talked alotttt, I told her my dis-satisfactions w my life/friends.
HEHEHEHE. & how fucked up it is for Jcwm to forget my name.
And also how I feel cause Fcks got jealous over his friendssssssssssss wanting my stupid number.
Yeah. laughsszxzx, had a yumyum dinner& headed home!
Oh I bought jelly beans for Chadddddddddy!:D
Its a heart-shaped container w different compartments w different colours of beans.
and you mix-and-match, then you get a special flavour! They teach you howwwww!
Omg my dad's pissing me off again. fuck him.

And today! was okay, pretty fun.
Woke up@ 9am, blasted Chad's phone, he woke up.
I told him to go shower, and I went back to sleep.
11am, I woke up, I was like wthwthwhtwth and called him, he say he's on th train!
Omgzzzzz, by th time I makeup/take train/bus/wadever, he was there for 2hrs alrd!
I don't like making people wait, Im sorry baby! :(
Then walked around, had breakfast@ Macccccccccs.
Then went outside Suntec, at th Fortune of Wealth there, do th 3's' - Sit/smoke/slack/~~sex~~.
Hahahahaha! Reeaallyy, no sex, no sex.
Then talk cock, he say my legs are smooth, lol.
And we shell go tanning soooooooon at Sentosa cause he thinks I'll look good in a bikini!
Then caught the movie, One Missed Call. Kinda sucked.
Went to meet Gavvvvy(Gavin) and Joshyyyyy(josh).
Went Penin. then town, Cine. then I left to Bugis, Fortune Centre.
To meet Mattsiong. Fucker make me wait 10mins.
Then I didn't feel like going in Gate13, so he had to leave early to meet me.
Took 14 to Ecp, had dinnnnner there, thanks lah Bro/Korkor/handsome/cat/kazua/snail.
HAHAHAAHAHAHAHA!
Went to the Beach, sat on some long thing, and talked and see star!
It was damn funny/beauuuuuuuuuutiful/pretty/nice/wadever!!!!!!!!
Almost missed my last bus home but I didn't! Hallelujah!

Btw, I saw lotsssssss of people today.
Shaunpang, Ryan, Jenson, Isaac, Rachel! Omgzxzxz!
SHAUN YOU STILL SO HOT! RYAN YOU STILL SO EMO.
JENSON IS BOTAK. ISAAC IS BLACK. RACHEL STILL THE SAME.
OH MY GOD.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Shoot me.
On my way home, Fcks msged me asking me to go over Hg, Im like nooooooooooooooway.
Im so tired alrd!
Qing wanted me to go 97 but I don't wanna see Jeremy.
Chad& co are drinking nowwww but I pangsaied them.
Matty's home and quarrelling w his baby.
Im home and talking to Daniel Tham, my Keaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!:D
Okay, bye! muahmuahmuahmuah. many kisses heheh.

Oh yes, before I end and my eyes go pajiao and my brains shut down.

Im fucking not happy w you already.

you and you fucked up actions, like wtf are you doing my dear?!

I can't tell it in your face, I don't wanna hurt you.

Stop sucking up to others already, it turns me off so fucking bad.

So now, you think you're famous and all?

You think since you're inked you're cool and unbeatable?

You think hanging out w him is sooooooo amazing?

Then shoot you.

She, met him at a fucking club.

He dated her.

They fucking had sex. put it in nice words, made good love.

He dumped her.

Tradegy.

I hate you bitch, stop acting like my bestfriend that knws me damn well.

Because I don't like you even one bit.

2008-01-10T19:28:00.000+08:00

No, don't flirt.

Harriet, me& Alexxxxxxxxxxxxxxx!
Hahahhaah, ohmygodhormonesly bored!
I lost my fucking wallet!
It has nothing veryyyyyyyy valuable(luckily),
except my ez-link that I just topped up, and remaining 3days of pass.
And, namecards fr Modelling agencies, Tattooshops, Beauty shit.
And the worse thing is - Its a fucking guess wallet that cost like $80-100.
My sis gave it to me, she's soooooo gonna fuck me please.
I don't understand lah.
Shoooooot me please. I want a new wallet for my coming birthday!:o
Hahhaahaha, yayyyyyyyy.
I want a happy birthday, literally.
Anyway, my class's realllly funny.

Miss Gomez: So.. what colour you want your file to be?
Someone: Pinkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!
Cassandra: Noway would I touch a pink file!
God-knows-who: Nooooooo, don't want pink!
God-knows-who2: No way! Pink suckssssssss.
God-knows-who3: Ahhhhhhhhh, I don't want pink lah!
& th list goes on..

Hahaaha, how stupid-.-
And um, that's all lah, Im still frigging pissed@ losing my wallet.
God, Chad you reply me like tortise, fuck you.

Oh yesyesyes! He actually dumped her omgzxzxz!
Yayyyyyyyyyyyy, you know what? I'm actually happy!
I'm soooooooooo not jealous, but happy.
Sorry girl, he doesn't like lianlianzxzxz, that wear fake diamond necklaces.
Hahahahaah, yay, shoot me!

2008-01-09T22:37:00.000+08:00

December@ Gate13!

Terence(holdingmybag) Harriet, Me, Vic, Alex, Shaun, Baldwin!
I know I look shittttty, but sorry lah!:/

Alex, Harriet, me, Victorrrrrrrrrr!

Gate13 is located@ Bugis, Fortune Centre, Top floor.

Tattoos and Piercings!

Main-tattooists: Baldwin, Victor& Shaun!
Apprentices: Matthew& Theodore!
Grrrreat service w nice tattoos& straight piercings, do gooooo!(:

2008-01-09T22:06:00.000+08:00

Good girls get onto the flooooor.

Hello worldddddddddd! Today was alright, pretty fun!:)

Met Harriet at townnnnn, went to study, she taught me Geoggggg!

Hahahaa, and we bitched, ate 7-11's fucking yumyum club sandwich.

and kitkat. smoked the new Marlboro Ice Mint!o: Niceeeeeeeeee man.

Wait arh, Justin call.

Hahahaha, smthing damn funny happened..

I was smoking outside Topman. And cause being alone at first, I was insecure.

I was afraid of stupid HSA, hahaha.

Then, I walked to one corner and w my back facing the crowd.

Suddenly, somebody taps me..

Me, thinking: OH FUCK SHIT SHIT DIE DIE OMFGFGFG! HOW! HSA SHIT!

Person: Hello.

Me: Looks at him- Errr hi. (thinking: OH SHIT FUCKFUCKFUCK CAN I RUN AWAY?)

Person: Hi, Im Steven.

Me: Oh okay. (thinking: omgomgomg, PLEASE LEMME RUN AWAY!!!)

Person: Im from.. Withdraws smth fr shirt pocket-

Me: Uh? ( thinking: SIAOLIAOLAH HE GG TO TAKE OUT HIS HSA CARD DIE!!!!!!!)

Person: Im from this modelling agency.

Me: OHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! (thinking: YAY YAY YAYY HENG AR CHEEEEEBYEEEE!)

Person: We want models like you, to model for brands like SKII, Loreal, Singtel& M1 (:

Me: Oh, uh huh.

Person: My boss finds you very suitable for us.

Me: oh okay, leaves contact number balbalblablalba-

Person: We'll definately give you a call, but if we fail to, pleaseplease call us (:

Me: Oh okay ( Thinking: OMFGFGFG IM SO HENG, SHOOT ME PLEASE)

Hahahaha hehehehe! Then went to collect my baby phone!

Then met Chaddddyyyy Babyyyyyyy!o: He's so cute please.

Slack at cine. Saw Ahxingggggg, omgzxzxz long time no see!

Hahahaha, then left for home, feeling, still, veryveryyyyyyy heng. hahaaha!

Chad wants to make out w me, hahahahaha! omg!

Okay, that's all for today! It's school for me tmr! Yayyyyy! there's PE!

Woo!

(thinking: Oh fuck, there's fucking school. Fuck! there's PE! shoot me!)

2008-01-08T18:42:00.001+08:00

Baby do you want me like this?

Helllllllllllo, tmr I'll be on MC!
My eye is red and swollen cause of my contactssssss fuck.
I went Raffles Clinic at cwp just nowwww.
Wearing shadesxzzz, omgzxzxz.
James and Adelson was there, went to talk t them.
James is forever so keaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.
This is smthing very funny:

James: Eh, Eric Ng say you're hot!
me: oh, ya, haha, okay.
James: Then he say give you free tattoo right!
me: Hahah, dunno?
Adelson: Omggggggg, you wear like that soooo not hot.
me: sorry larrrrr, im in the ugly state now.

then the doctor say that I actually need operation.
TAMADE THE BILL IS LIKE, TMD 32.50 fuckfuckfuck.
Okay, I need some rest.
Harriet, Josh, Chad actually wanted me at town. ohhhhhhhhhhh shoot me no.

THIS IS MY FAV CLUBBING SONG RIGHT NOW ! :)

2008-01-07T22:19:00.000+08:00

Kill me, shoot me, fuck me.

Hello people, today was kinda stupid yawns.
Went school, my eye hurtttttttttts. Chad was msging me, yay.
Kept me away fr stupid boredness.
After school went to meet Dad, then we went to Cathay and get my phone fixed.
Tmr gotta go back there and retrieve it.
Life suddenly feel like it sucks.
Had Billy Bombers w th lover boy.
Jeremy actually called me and ask if i know Rianee/wadever/vian. Im like huh.
I knoow Vian baby. then the girl came and fucking shout into my ear.
HIIIIII YOU ARE LOW JIA YINGGG RIGHTTTTTT!!!! Im like, er no, im Wan jiayee.
Im sec 3 honey. please check bfore you actually scream shit.
then Im like scratch head, you've got the wrong person darling.
Fucked jeremy cause hell, he forgot my fucking name, its jiaYEE no jiaYING.
omfg, shoot me. 6 mnths of relationship and he can think my fucking name's like jiaYING.
Ohwell, I take my fucking hat off you.
Ughghzxzx, met my baby Harriet. and we had B& Js' yeah.
Make up and did my uniform.
Met Chad& Josh. they say i look very sluttttttttttttyy in sch uni. omg shoot me.
Went around, was fucking bored so i homed.
the end!
Im super duper fucking tired right now, I so wanna fuck someone, not literally.
Qing says he wanna bring me to 97 this weekend, omg.
Free alchohol.
I so so so so wanna get dead drunk this fucking minute.

2008-01-06T13:50:00.000+08:00

Pictures of you. and me.

OKAY, THIS WAS ME AND HARRIET'S EMO DAY.

SERIOUSLY.

SEE, I LOOK SO EMO. LIKE ELMO.

I WANT THIS PIERCING FUCKINGGGG FUCKING BADLY. OH.

By: Baldwin anyway!

SHE IS HARRIET, SHE HAS LOTSA HOLES. OOOO.

IM JIAYEE AND I THINK I LOOK LIKE COCK.

hello all! Im back, mwahahahahahaha!

I wanna cook for my next boyfriend, make good love every fucking day.

and and and, know his mummy and daddy.

make him fetch me fr schoool everyday!

go clubbing w me every saturday! dance w me when we club.

come over to my house every sunday, wake me up and join my family f breakfast!

then bring me shopping w his unlimited amount of cashhhhhhhhh.

and tutor/study w meeeeeee, meow!

and surprise meeeeeeeeeeeeee,

Call me/msg me when he misses me and start sweeeet talking ( but means it lar)

Rich handsome sweet boys, omgzxzx, zhe yang de bf qu na li zhao?!

HAHAHAAHA.

Very random but I think its worth a thought, right?

Then last till marriage, get 4 kiddos and live happily ever after.

Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

Btw, Im gonna get a full chest tattoooooooo sooon, after i grow up, HAHAHAHAHAAHHA!!!!

shut up okay, although its another 123123123123 years, but its a resolution!

Yah, anyway, I can cook very yummy scrambled eggs with cheese, some jap sauce and mayo.

its yumyum! ^^

Joshy said I can be a model, but i think i've to lose some fats first.

Okay, 5 kgs'd be enough, I'd be skinyyyyyyyyyyyyyy omg!!!!

then.. I'll be a model. strictly for my next boyfriend only. HAHAHA ignore this post.

its WAYYYYYY past CRAP.

lisern to this song, Dota song, those who love dota(like me) will laugh at it. its nice ;)

Brandon lemme hear at Alfrey's house, last month ;)

2008-01-06T11:23:00.000+08:00

I want to bite scream kick punch pull hit ANYBODY now that's gonna get on
my fucking nerves because........ i have no fucking idea WHY.

Okay, i think i've changed alot since I mia-ed.
For eg. I WON'T go out unless there's
a) cigs.
b) funny boys/people/bla.
c) towntowntowntown, I swear its boring there but at least. i feel cool.

Also, I will never ever ever ever wear my stupid couple wear shirt w Jerms.
that stupidly says: IM THE ONE YOU ARE WAITING FOR. OMG.
shoot me. and fuck me hard. HAHAHAHA.

I really miss my Alfrey sister, Pinky, Alan& co. OMGZXZXZ.
because I havent met them for a few weeks and Alfrey's inside. Kenneth's coming out soon!
YIPEE YA YA YIPEE YIPEE YA!!!!
Qing&co says ken would be fucking shocked to see me, oh well.
2007's passe! What've I done that I've regret?
Nthing much, more about not studying hard. and also, the jeremy part.
HAHA.
Ya, shut up just lemme rant, THIS IS MY BLOG.

to the 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,100000 guys that I've toyed with last year, Im so so so so sorry.
I got my retribution alrd okay! I lost Jeremy.
But sadly, I dont love him anymore now. alamak. he treated me like a dog. mofo.

Dec hols was really fun and hell, it past so fast, Im sec three! omgzxzxz.
I've been blogging since bloody primary 5. teeheehee.
OH yesyesyes, please dont go sheesha at the some eygpt(sp) cafe near Haji lane.
cause it sucks big time. really big time. Although me and Chad were a little light headed.
but still sucked.
gives a stupid face-
Okay, I need to do something productive soon, tata!

2008-01-06T08:18:00.000+08:00

So much for, you know you love me.

Hello people, my com's back up!
Hahahaha, btw, Christmas was homeclub! yup.
Was veryyyyyyyy fucking fun, minus the fact that I was drunkkkkkkk.
And Mattsiong probably thought I was actually irritating. HAHAHA.
Bear sent me home. Fr Clarke Quay alllllllll th way t woodlands& back to Bedok.
Wow. Cab fare was a bomb.
Omfgehwtfbqqqqqqq, I sooo fucking hate cabfares.
And also, typing now feels kinda weird.
HAHAHAHA. Then, New year was fucking boring -.- I regreted not gg 97.
But it was still, alright. Cafe Iguana, hahahahahaa, dont remind me.
Yeah. Errrrrr, school reopen alrd.
Mr Lim's my form teacher, he's quite nice. hahahahaha.
AIYA I DUNNNO WAD TO TYPE! T.T

Ytd was outing w Xw, Josh, Chad, Gavin& Shar.
Hahahahaha, went sheesha.
Then went drinking. Stupid lar cb, omg, omg, omg, I must have made a fool outta myself.
AGAIN. FUCK.
Josh sent me allllllll the way home. and ate all my chips. fuckerrrrrrr. with many Rs.
Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Life's a bitch.
The previous day was at Frankie's house :)
Watching stupid drama and I bought him a box of prestige chocolates f our belated one year anniversary!
Hahhahaa, he? he gave me.. lots and lots of hugszxzz and kisesesseszxzz.
I swear kissing him is my hobbbbbby. hahhhaa!
And then, his mummy came in! o.O OMG!
HAHAHAHA, then we both started laughing balls.

New year resolution? To do well in my studies and also, be happy.
oh yes, dear god, please get me a boyfriend before Valentines. Thank you manymany!
AND OH MAN TMR GOT SCHOOL AGAIN.
!#!$!$%!$!$!!$#!$!$!$%! !!! :/

Oh oh oh oh, this was what pissed me off on new years.

Me: Eh bro, happy new year!!!!!!!!!
stupidasshole: Oh haha, happy new year too.
Me: Where're you?
s.a.h: Oh, gg pasir ris chalet now.
Me: OMGOMGOMG, CAN I GO STAY THERE?!
s.a.h: For what, you only know few people.
Me: Fun lar, new year wad.
s.a.h: Dont want lar.. blalbalbalbalblalbblablalblalbla ( all his rubbish)
Me: Okay, fine, bye.

5 mins later, my other 'BRO' called me.

handsomeboy: Hey, happy new year sis.
Me: Haha, happy new year, where you!
h.b: Ohhhhhhh gg pasir ris chalet.
Me: Oh, the s.a.h going ar?
h.b: Yup.
Me: Sialar, I wanna go siaaaaaaaaaaa!
h.b: come lar! but s.a.h going w his girlfriend and Im also going w my girlfriend.
Me: O.O HE GOT GF AR.

okay I end there, cb lar, got gf say got gf lar.
not say without him i will go cut myself and die and blablabla.
BUT, NO LAR IM NOT ANGRY AT HIM NOW.
Okay, I need more sleep.

2007-12-24T12:43:00.000+08:00

Hello people! Im at Xiaowei's houseeeeee.
Yayyyyy.
Anyways, went DXO few days ago! I got in as 18!
Lollllll so free alcohol and shots f meeeee.
cause the bartender wanted my number so i made them gimme shotssss.
HEHEHE. Met zhenrui and eugene.
danced like a whore.
and Eug told me alot of guys wanted to dance w me and alot of ppl looking.
oh god is christmas(: Meery X'mas dearies!

I love you all.

I wan him (definately aint jermo) on Christmas(:

2007-12-17T21:03:00.000+08:00

Hello! hahaha.
Errrrrrr, lots of things been happening :D
Im at jJhan's house nowwwww.
I GOT MY SMILEY PIERCED!:) and i wanna get my frownieeeee soon.
then septum, thennnnnnnnn eyebrown! hahahaha :D
Xiaowei& i went drinking ytd and we kinda screwed up.
booooooooooo. ya k byebye!:)

2007-12-06T18:00:00.000+08:00

HELLO!(:
haha, im at Frankie's houseeeeee.
his friend's buggging me f my number -.-
anyway, qing's bbq, i got drunnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnk, haha!
thanks to guan lar cb make me drink so much!:(
srry to daniel scott and whoever that i ........... :D
hahahha, but i had great fun and a bad headache!
yeah, then ytd ton w james, pinky and co. damn fucking funny bodoh.
jialong made me laugh till die. yeah tts all.

I dont wanna be in ~~love Y~~

2007-11-30T23:25:00.001+08:00

Hellllllooo!!!!!!!! :D
hahaha, im at Kaihong's friend's house and pinky's helping Roger do tattoo! lols.
okay. my blog is getting boring :(
by the way, went town just now w Kai.
errrrrrr and i got over jerms cause i realise i've been psychoing
myself i like him. errrr, like finafuckingly, haah!
Ya. There's a baby in my hse and tmr's qing''s bday bbq!
i bought him havianas, :) scha a sweet sis hor!
yeah thats all will update soon! sorry! bye! :D

2007-11-13T21:09:00.000+08:00

hello people! today's attica's party.
stupid underage. like dino said, NOT FOR COOL KIDS LIKE US.
haha, btw Im on MIAMIA, means double MIA. haha.
Im working btw, at Bugis street, after the fruit juice shop turn left into the watch
and two shops after, haha!:D
I'm okay, errrmmmm, yeah(: met Jcwm ytd, bla.
and alot things been happening. yup!
Hougang Green ytd, Town the day before w Rara, Dino& co.
Errrrrrrr, and many lar. hahahaa.

Do take care okay you all! :o byebye!!!!
I'll be back soon! haha.

LASTLY, IMMA COOLKID, HAHAHAHAHAAHA!

2007-11-01T18:59:00.000+08:00

The only song that I swear makes me cry. all the time.

OFF TO DOTA! XOXO!

2007-11-01T18:25:00.000+08:00

hello all! ahahhaah, im still on mia!
I was sent to hospital by ambulance the other day.
cause my knee got dislocated :( fucking hurts but its okay now!
no worrries! :)
Thanks to everyoneeee, like er jeremy, blablabla, shaun, glenn, aeron, blablbalbala.
( lots to name)
errrrrr, life has been okay people! how bout you guys'?
Im still waiting f Jeremy (: hehehe.

Oh to the passys.
Nah, I got into 3B1 instead of A. haha. kinda disappointing eh?:( boo.
t the other passer, thanks alot! (: ahaha, god bless you too!
HAHAHA I MISS YOU GUYS LA K!!!!!!!!!!! ALL OF U WHO TAGGED!
AND SHIT! WHERE'S MY BLOG PASSWORD THING. DAMN.
hhaa.
will fix everything soon, Im rushing this post cause I wanna go play dota, hehehe.
Errrrrrr, maybe you'll get to catch me in clubs/hougang area/woodlands/ my house! Hhahaha!

tts all k! takecare! I LOVE YOU GUYS!(: AND I MISS MY GFSSSS
ESP BRENDA SONIA VIAN!!!!!!!!!!! BYEEEEEE!

2007-10-20T17:54:00.000+08:00

Hello world!
Im still on MIA and im freaaaaaaaking sorrry!:(
Blah.
This week's been okay. Skip sch on like alternate days.
Got drunk on Tuesday. I think.
Wednesday was Sakae Sushi w my lovers, Sonia& Heyong.
I SWEAR! if you were there that day, you'll see the gross side of me.
HAHAHAHAA. CORN SUSHI, EEEEE! :O
Met Yongqing Sister and Vincent on Thurs.
Errrrrrr, Friday went f dance class, kinda fun!
Mum's reallllly nice, she increased my allowance!
And bought me the sleep at 3am wake up a 9am foundation which's like forty bucks!
and powder. and mosturizer. and blaaaaaaaaa.
Later'd be MOS, hospital and Jitterbugs! Yay!
Ohohohoh, I saw Ezam and Sirong ytd. Sweet couple!
they told me I changed alot, ohwelll~~~~
Errrr some beng took my number ytd and i gave him Jeff's number
cause I was on the phone w him. heheehehe. paiseh lar Dear.
Lol. Im still waiting for Jcwm, no worries.
Errrrrmmmmm, wad else? DXO tonight? who's gg?
Yeah thats all, takecare ya all! I do love you all so keeep checking back yeah!
xoxo! :)

____________________

Ey! Im back for now, haahahha.
Some guy called Yukio claims he knw me and I met him at Velvet ?.?!!!
worse he say I ask him buy drinks. hello! if I wanna drink I need not find a stranger?!?!
Zzzz, anywayssssss, yeah. Im hungry and I think my period just came.
gives the omg wtf look-
I miss Jcwm. I realllllly do!:(
Its not that I dont wanna meet you Baby,
I really want to. But! I shell tahan. the more I see you, the more I cant extract myself.
Luckily, not too bad, I have our pic in my wallet!:D
This way, I wont die so soon. hehe.
Im bored, hungry :( shell go buy some food frm that scary man at the counter ^^

2007-10-13T17:52:00.000+08:00

Oh god, I swearrrrrrrrrrr my blogger header is such an embarrasment. damn.
Feels teeny weeeiirdddzxzx worxzx that im actually bloggging in a lanshop.
my com broke down. like. fuggggggg :(
Nothing's been happening. seriously. I just blasted a hundred bucks
on my dance course(s) :(
ohohohoh, best thing's Kenneth's finally coming out fr boys' home next week!
And Im prolly staying home for the wholeeeee of November!
Why? Dont know. Just feel like lor~
Lol! Anyway, yeah, okay, Founder's day was Boringgggggggg.
Forced to attend cause I had to meet Beth at Bishan at 230 before the thang start.
Yeah. haha. Shit, I swear my blog header is sucha irritating thing.
Erm. Yeah. Im at lanshop near Panjang. Im deciding to go either shoppping or church later!
Im not gg out during November!!!! REALLY I SWEAR!!!!!!!!:o
You wont see me! And I wont be blogging so much cause my com sucks.
its bloody disgusting. Yeah. heh.
Thats all, my life's been boring to the max cause I've been a couch potato and
everyday's Home, Teevee, Sleep, Eat. heehehehehehe.

Do miss me, xoxoxoxxoo, i love you all, muack muack.
Hahahahhahaa, bye~~~~~~~

2007-10-09T22:48:00.000+08:00

I think you've forgot about me.

{ Angkongsiao act cute leaaaaaa, maisiaosiao}

Ey! What's up!

Sorry f not blogging, com sucks. Anyway, Monday was stupid.

School had netball crap. and I wasnt really, you know.

Besides, my eyes were swollen fr all the crying throughout the fucking night.

I miss you. Rara, but I guess you dont even think about me.

Today, I skipped school. Had Gelare, Pastamania& Yoshinoya w my Sissy.

What's best? we crapped alot.

We gossipped alot. Rah, it might be YOU we were gossiping about (;

Laughs-

Then errrrr, homed. Xinyan staying over! hehehehe.

He's with Dajie buying ice-creaaaam f me& Sis!o:

Yayyyyyy, thats all, i've no life.

Just that, Im eating salmon sushi with J.c this coming weekend! Meow!(:

Tht's all. yay, bye~

I miss the times we had,

Be it Sentosa or at void decks,

friend's house or anywhere.

I miss the old you.

When you'd msg me suddenly and say: Baby, where're you?

I misss messing arnd w you.

I miss doing everything w you.

I miss quarrelling w you.

I miss being bimbo w you.

I miss your smell.

I miss your hugs.

I miss every single thing about you.

but I guess..

You dont miss me abit. at all.

2007-10-07T22:04:00.000+08:00

Chaocheebye.
I just quarrelled with my mum, this post gonna be all ranting and all. Im sorry. I cant take it anymore. Where're you when I ever, ever need you?): I miss you. I fought with that bitch. I know I always say I love her and all. But when she does things like this kinda shit, I cannot take it. Besides, the pressure added by him, I know he's nt coming back, I swear. Thanks Juensu. Thanks. I know, but I really... I wanna give up living already. I seeriously hate my fucking life. I wanna go and die, seriously, seriously. I want him so bad. I hate my house. Omfg, this is fucked. Bitch wants me to study throughout th hols, thats like fucking no way. She thinks I can go back to A class again. No fuckingway. I hate the people there. I'd rather be a normal person okay. I hate crying. I seriously hate crying, I seriously hate fucking moodswings. I hate being so fucked up all the time. But I cannot take it anymore. Im not wanting you guys to sympathize with me, or pity me or smth. I just want care, and concern. Is that so fucking difficult. And Boy if you ever read this post, like I said before, I dont want you to come back because Im always crying and blabla for you, I want you to come back, because you wish to. But that'll never come true. I swear my life sucks. Thats all luh. bye.

2007-10-07T14:42:00.000+08:00

You're my only hope.

Ey world!o: Yea, Im still waiting for him to be backkkk!o:
&the whole world's like telling me: Omgzxzxz you serious huh! don't larrrr!
Or, Cm'on, go lead a better life. Or, he's not worth it. or.. Whatever.
Im sorry if I was rude to say stuff like: Fuck off, I knw what Im doing. or
ignore you. Or, give you that "Isit any of your buisiness" look. Bleah. its actually time for me to make my own descisions.
Watching A walk to remember on a rainy Sunday isint helping much.
Its so bloody sad fuck.
Yeah, Im still tiongxim Jeremy ohkay! I don't mess/fool around w other guys.
Miracle! lolololols!
Anyway, Isaac's birthday thingthing? I'll update about that in a whilst.
Cause Ive like no pics. When I get the pics, I'll update(:
Heh. Ytd was alright. Met Suaidi bro at Sp. Walked around.
Puffed. Then me& Kenny(smb) started playing. Hahhahaaha, he keep disiao me!
So I throw ice-kachang at him, then damn funny bodoh!
We take, no he tkae Suaidi's hp pouch and dip inside! -.-
Suaidi was on the phone w Andy(luckily), then come back, Kenny say is I make one.
Nabei! Ughzxzxz, then walk to Suaidi house wait f him to change.
Knn, his house sibei chio bodoh!:x Then use com, me& K play w his gun.
Damn funnnnnnny!o:
Then I jumped on K& he piggyback me, lolols. Sibei tall bodoh!
Machiam like giraffe!o.o! If you dunno, K is fucking tall.
Yeah, then went to god-knws-where and met Mervyn.
Go Sp, buy their army stuff then go Mervyn house slack/pack the stuff.
Then after awhile, went back Sp wait f Andy.
He cab down, then we all cab to Bugis there for sheesha.
Met Ali, & alot people lahs. Anyway, yarrrr. All army boys -.-
girls only got me& Some guy's gf.
Took fucking lonnnngggg to get a fucking sit. pissed off.
Then 961-ed home when I was supposed to CAB home :/
Took me an hour plus to reach home!:@
Then Daddy came to fetch me at Cwp.
This few ahbengs were bugging me for my number.
I was like Errrrrr,no! I was pissed cause it was alrd 1am plus&I was fking hungry!
Then Dad FINALLY came, the buggers just stare O.O
as I go up the car, Dad drove, I point middle finger,lol!
Pick Mum,Sis& Xinyan(another army boy) fr home and drove to Hougang for my supper/dinner/lunch.
Lol!o: Had Prawn mee. Yumyum. then homed at 3amplus.
Sleep all the waaaaaay!:D

That's all, byebyeeee! I had a great day w army boys. Lol! stupid botaks.

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Eys, Im bored. I've been slacking th whole day.
Found out tmr we'll have grooming talk, Tuesday's Sexuality talk!
Yayyyyyyyyyyyy, Friday's founder's day!
That's like woooohooooo! fucking happiness bodoh!o:
Yawns, my nicotine level low lorrrrrrr, ):

Things I gotta, MUST, do thiss week.
a) get my allowance fr Dad.
b) Crash diet.
c) Buy grey contacts.
d) Sign up for the dance class, get 100 bucks fr mum ( Beth signed on alrd! ahhhh!)
e) Meet him& pass him the letter.

Right, I hope I can do it!o.o
That's allllllll, (: Yay!
Anyway, I seeeeeeeriously hate boys who dont brush their teeth,
dont know the meaning of ladies first,
like to act one satki!o: So annoying!
My belly piercing's bleeding, I think I yanked it just nowwwwww.
Ughzxxz, & to B, I know what Im doing ( I guesss) I wont regret(: Thnks babe.
Lalalalala.
I think Porky is getting fatttttt, but damnit! He's like fat but so fucking hot!
Lol!:x Paiseh~

byebye~